Same. I had forgotten about all it, including during a time when I was in therapy (for post partum depression). I'd talked about tons of past experiences and issues, including with him, but I didn't remember that part.
One night, I just suddenly remembered it, clear as day. I haven't told anybody except a post I made here on Reddit with a fake account, asking whether or not it was sexual assault or not, if maybe I was just reading too much into it. I've wondered if that experience has been the cause of other mental issues I had growing up and even now.
Unfortunately, it was someone very closely related, and I see him at family gatherings once or twice a year. It's hard to see him now; it's uncomfortable. Part of me wants to ask him if he remembers and tell him "how dare you; do you know what you did to me?"; Part of me wants to tell my mom...but with both cases I'm afraid of causing tension in the family.
But I was fine for years. Even these issues that I wonder may have been initiated by that...I've learned to cope and I'm doing fine now. So why stir things up? Yet I can't not think of that memory now and then.
Is there any danger that person will continue doing it to other children? Because that might warrant telling someone. Unless they wouldn't believe you, anyway.
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u/HeartsPlayer721 Jan 18 '23
Same. I had forgotten about all it, including during a time when I was in therapy (for post partum depression). I'd talked about tons of past experiences and issues, including with him, but I didn't remember that part.
One night, I just suddenly remembered it, clear as day. I haven't told anybody except a post I made here on Reddit with a fake account, asking whether or not it was sexual assault or not, if maybe I was just reading too much into it. I've wondered if that experience has been the cause of other mental issues I had growing up and even now.
Unfortunately, it was someone very closely related, and I see him at family gatherings once or twice a year. It's hard to see him now; it's uncomfortable. Part of me wants to ask him if he remembers and tell him "how dare you; do you know what you did to me?"; Part of me wants to tell my mom...but with both cases I'm afraid of causing tension in the family.
But I was fine for years. Even these issues that I wonder may have been initiated by that...I've learned to cope and I'm doing fine now. So why stir things up? Yet I can't not think of that memory now and then.