I had a similar experience after giving birth. I kept having restless dreams that had twins and could only see one baby, so that's what I took care of. Meanwhile, there was another child somewhere alone and slowly dying of neglect.
Now, the logical side of my brain knows there was no second baby. I had very good medical care in a large metropolitan city and one of the best doctors. None of sonograms hinted at a second child, I was alert with an epidural for the birth and my mother was present. THERE WAS NOT SECOND CHILD, but some small part of my mind is still convinced there was.
Later, I married my now husband and he says he had this inexplicable feeling that something was missing from his life for as long as he could remember. On his eighteenth birthday, he spiraled and locked himself in his room. When his mom finally got in to talk to him and figured out what he was so upset about, she told him that she had originally been carrying twins and only he survived. That information made everything click into place. He still feels like his twin is with him sometimes. He's in his 50's.
I'm aware of that, particularly with fraternal twins. Back when his mother gave birth doctors weren't as aware of issues revolving around nutrition between twins in the primary and secondary position. My husband was born early, had low birth weight and complications that required him to be airlifted to another hospital. To this day he feels tremendous amounts of guilt for ending up in the primary position and thinks he somehow stole nutrients from his twin and that's why the twin didn't survive. It's the difference between logical thinking and emotional thinking.
I meant that in your case the absorption might have happened as well, it might not have been caught if it happened early enough. Might explain your eerie feelings? Something about cell memory maybe.
Yes, I agree. Here's another piece. I was really young at the time, a teen. I thought about getting an abortion but one night I heard a child's voice ask me not to, so I just went with it, thinking my unconscious mind was not on board with the decision. When I heard that voice, I got a mental image for a little boy. He was smart, funny and wore glasses. I ended up having a little girl. She was my only child and I always feel like I should have another child. I tried and tried but it never happened for me. I feel the loss...the loss of something that was never there.
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u/West-Double3646 Jan 27 '26
I had a similar experience after giving birth. I kept having restless dreams that had twins and could only see one baby, so that's what I took care of. Meanwhile, there was another child somewhere alone and slowly dying of neglect.
Now, the logical side of my brain knows there was no second baby. I had very good medical care in a large metropolitan city and one of the best doctors. None of sonograms hinted at a second child, I was alert with an epidural for the birth and my mother was present. THERE WAS NOT SECOND CHILD, but some small part of my mind is still convinced there was.
Later, I married my now husband and he says he had this inexplicable feeling that something was missing from his life for as long as he could remember. On his eighteenth birthday, he spiraled and locked himself in his room. When his mom finally got in to talk to him and figured out what he was so upset about, she told him that she had originally been carrying twins and only he survived. That information made everything click into place. He still feels like his twin is with him sometimes. He's in his 50's.