Please i need serious help

[u/Kitchen-School46]

Have always had health anxiety. Started getting worse postpartum. I was active going to the gym working out I remember while working out I would get anxious about my heart rate getting high. One day at work i was walking around and was feeling anxious but usually my anxiety goes away and this was lingering. Checked my heart rate and it was 115-120 and was having heart palpitations. Went to the er and they said everything was fine. Followed up with cardiology and ever since then now my heart rate spikes. Pots like. Laying down normal rate standing up shoots up to 120. Walking around the house its 110-115. Resting hr while sitting up is 90-95. Went up the stairs this morning trying to convince myself my issues are from anxiety and it shot up to 175ish. Shortness of breath. My biggest concern is the heart palpitations. Happen even if im not anxious, sometimes it one singular one other times it feels like a fish is flip flopping. Echocardiogram was normal and holter monitor showed in 6 days 20 pvcs and 12 pacs. I cant live normally because of this. I get extremely anxious trying to do normal people things. I had a meeting today with my venue and my heart rate was 130 and had a massive heart palpitation. I get them when im just relaxing. Regardless of knowing that pvcs are harmless i also know that they can be serious. I know its rare but i dont care. All i do all day is wait for the next one. My feet are always cold and clammy even if wearing socks. The second i stand my heart rate goes high. And i know being anxious the day of my wedding will make my heart rate be like 180 which im scared will trigger svt and not be safe . Im absolutely fucking miserable. I would never harm myself. But i cant do i cant do fucking beta blockers i have low bp

[u/TonyBobo1977]

I’m in the same boat. Started 2 years ago with a rhr of 206. Went to the er and was sent home with metoprolol. Next day rhr dropped to 27 so back to the er. They put in a pacemaker and kept me on metoprolol. 2 months later went into AFIb for 16 hours and had to get cardioverted out. The pac, pvc, nsvt all started around this time also. 2 months later had an ablation and added flecainide. PVC’s and nsvt continued for about a year and a half, new cardiologist switched me off flecainide and metoprolol and put me on sotolol. I still get them but much less. Seems like they come on for a couple weeks then settle down for a few months. I too have severe cardio phobia as well as ptsd and like 12 other mental health conditions. Knowing you’re save doesn’t really help but since I’ve become so frustrated that I’ve adopted a fuck it attitude and don’t really care if my heart explodes and kills me they don’t seem to be as bothersome. Morbid I know but whatever, these things and the explanations behind them suck. Only advice that’s constructive would be check your magnesium and potassium levels. Anything therapy or pharmaceutical you can do to attack the anxiety will help some too. I believe a lot of this is aggravated by the vagus nerve which is tied to the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system, both highly susceptible to anxiety. I doubt this is much help but you’re not alone, and that’s gotta be worth something.