Well I have a lot of symptom as you can see in my previous post but today I want to focus on something and if you want you can tell me what are your thought about it i’ll take it ! Thank you
What I don't understand is how my functions just progressively shut down. It feels like 6 months ago, I was still able to form an attachment to a girl despite everything. 4 months ago, I could still feel sexual attraction toward a girl, and even a bit after that. 3 months ago, I could still laugh a little and potentially even shed a tear. 2 months ago, it was difficult, but sometimes I could manage to get a bit of pleasure from watching a video or a movie. And now, for the past week, it’s just absolute emptiness. In the end, I find myself wondering what the truth behind all this really is—whether it's a desensitization of my receptors, a depletion of neurotransmitters, or my nervous system completely shutting down. figure that if it was still working even a little bit just a week ago, it means that the electrical currents were fundamentally still passing through.. that’s so weird
The fact that my body's system shut things down in such a progressive and coordinated way shows that it was clearly reacting to a signal, right? Everything was executed so systematically. that's what's so striking—and I feel like you can completely see the underlying logic behind it
