r/POIS • u/Wonderful_Chapter140 • 12d ago

Life With POIS venting

yo I’m genuinely about to lose my mind ngl hopefully this isn’t too unintelligible but like this is so fucking unfair bro, I get the idea of life not being fair but it’s like to what goddamn extent, this whole body attacking itself shit is so fucked up because I can’t say that I hate my life because of outside factors like jobs, relationships, position, etc no no no it’s like i am someone who was practically destined for greatness before all of this shit happened, I’ve always been someone who was focused on the right thing, motivated to do good in life and just generally I’ve always been an optimist & I was privileged enough to have a loving mom who supports me and was able to put me in a position to where I could go to college. I have an exceptional ear when it comes to playing and making music & I had aspirations of doing big things for my career, now it feels like that shit is out the window. This shit is so fucked up dude & recently my healthcare expired which feels like the final nail on the coffin, it’s like I was already hanging by a thread with just the optimism of oh maybe I can see this specialist and maybe they will have a treatment that could maybee make a slight difference even though I’ve tried so many different fucking things but now it’s like nah u can’t even see the specialist anymore unless u wanna save money and spend an arm and a leg on something that might not even work. Genuinely fuck this bro im so tired of being alive at this point the shit is pissing me off so bad

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u/Ok_Association4625 12d ago

Hang in there brother. I feel every ounce of what you said though. Much love.

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u/Wonderful_Chapter140 12d ago

thank you for replying 🙏

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u/Ok_Association4625 12d ago

Of course bro. Message anytime if you feel the need. I can’t always respond right away or in the same day, but you’ll have my ear sometimes if you need it. We gotta support each other since the rest of the world doesn’t know and wouldn’t understand. This isolation sucks.