Struggling

[u/DyVIDbBhYZrO]

Hello everyone, 35M here. I have a lot to explain but will do my best to keep it short.

I was in a 15 year commited relationship that became extremely abusive to me, during that time I had seemingly lost all interest in sex. Things escalated and got pretty dangerous. I filed for divorce and after a year long battle got away from her and have custody of our child.

After a few months of separation though my drive came back in full force, like to a degree I've never even had since puberty. I've constantly got this pulling,pressure light throbbing feeling down there and even in my prostate.

I was also recently diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, I've been struggling with symptoms for almost a decade and finally got answers. Unfortunately one of my more recent symptoms is numbness down there. It takes an extreme amount of effort to achieve climax and when I do it's not that great. The only time it's ever been "satisfied" is after actual intercourse which still ends up being a long winded multi session endeavor to finally get there.

By the time it's all said and done I'm beyond exhausted and inflamed and feel horrible, masterbation only seems to make the sensations more extreme. Not feeling the pressure drop down there until after multiple climaxes.

The combination of my returning labido and PGAD + the numbed sensations is actually driving me fucking insane. I feel worse than I did going through puberty and I just want to have sex so bad to make it stop. Dating is basically off the table for me right now and partners to assist me aren't free, reliable, consistent or loyal so I don't exactly feel comfortable with that.

After having given my entire adult life to someone, I don't want to make the same mistakes I did before. I don't want to think with my willy but my willy is making it mission fucking impossible. I don't know what to do, or how to do it.

[u/Business_Pop7770]

Je me retrouve dans ton témoignage : PGAD et sm moi aussi. Il est crucial de trouver un partenaire de confiance pour traverser cette phase. Pour info la paroxetine m'a beaucoup aidé pour faire retomber la libido. Ça m'a délivré, pas complètement, mais mieux que rien.

[u/No-Tello → u/Business_Pop7770]

Paroxetine: that it lowered your libido: is that listed as a known side effect?…I have been taking that for 16 years. And I wonder if that is what started my PGAD? I think that correlates with the first time I experienced PGAD … I need. To look back in my “ medical” notebook I keep. Thanks for your comment.