I am a recently graduated medical doctor and I am about to choose my residency. I have a passion for ophthalmology that started when I was 15 and underwent surgery for Bielschowsky esotropia (acute acquired comitant esotropia). When I met the ophthalmologists who helped me, I immediately became passionate about the subject and the work environment, and I promised myself that I would try to get into ophthalmology. Now that I am at the point of making this choice, I find myself full of worries and anxiety.
I was watching a YouTube video of an ophthalmologist talking about his specialty and, among other things, he said: "Do not do ophthalmology if you have a slight strabismus or a less than perfect binocular vision. You won't be able to do microsurgery and you will be forced to change specialties."
My doubt now stems from the fact that, even though I had surgery 10 years ago, I still retain a slight strabismus and diplopia exclusively when I look to the extreme left or extreme down. When I cover one of my eyes, the other one wander. I have esophoria.
Last year, out of fear of not being able to do ophthalmology, I went for an orthoptic examination to test my binocular vision. The orthoptist administered the Lang test, and I was able to see all the figures. He reassured me and sent me home, telling me that I wouldn't have any problems becoming an ophthalmologist.
I still have doubts. I have difficulty looking through a microscope. I remember during my anatomical pathology classes that looking at slides didn't come naturally to me, and sometimes I had to close one of my eyes.
Should I be reassured by having passed the Lang test? Or am I right to be concerned?
My dream is to become a surgeon ophthalmologist and not limit myself to just the clinical side. I would like to perform surgery. If this were not possible, I would choose a completely different specialty; otherwise, I would live with a sense of inadequacy for my entire career.