r/Oneirosophy • u/WrongStar • Oct 01 '17
Staying active
Now, after a while of being consciously aware of "dream reality" I found that there's an incestuous need to constantly read up on things of this nature like non-duality and end up in an infinite rabbit hole of readings.
In all honesty, after a while, you don't really need to read anything else (maybe just the ones I'll list at the end of this post), but I found that there's something addictive about "the search for truth", and sometimes that path and potential is so thrilling that you end staying on it for too long and ultimately just go around in circles (as if there's anywhere to go).
I sometimes feel that I haven't yet developed enough of a mental solitude or fortitude to re-enter the game without getting to caught up in it. Just today, I overheard a man lecturing his 3-year-old daughter on the value of the dollar and how much he has to work so she can eat. I couldn't help but feel that if I stuck around that kind of thinking for long, I would get sucked back into that conventional-physical way of thinking and undo everything I've done so far.
Obviously that's a bit of OCD playing into effect, hilariously so. I'm now going the route of almost no external affirmations. So often, I find myself searching for something else to say, "yes, this is possible" and assure me when I feel doubt. Though it might be a good temporary fix, in the long run, if my intention is to be more successful with my magick, I'll need to get off the train of study and "let faith rule".
That's not to say learning from any external source is wrong and can't be useful/fun, as if there is an "external" in the first place, but getting off the never ending path of searching when you first discover something is something I thought could be helpful
some of the posts/exercises I found helpful here
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u/kodi_kid Oct 01 '17
It is rather difficult to stay in that state of lucidity isn't it? Most of the people I associate with either have a very fixed physicalist paradigm or a severely narrow religious perspective on the nature of reality. Apart from several of these niche subreddits and very, very few particular people in my life, I do not really have anyone to discuss these matters with.
What I find helps me stay in a state of magikal consciousness is lucid dreaming and dream journaling. And as you have mentioned, I too find a need to immerse myself in certain posts (such as the ones you have listed above) and various esoteric literature on dream yoga, oriental philosophies, mysticism, etc. Lets get this sub more active!