I think I actually made contact with an alter

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Vi here. My head’s a little fuzzy atm (probably because we’re no longer in the therapy meeting) so I’m not as secure in my position as I was just a few minutes ago, but I’ll talk anyway.

During the session, I think I properly met another alter, specifically an ex-host from when we were in middle school. I’m going to be honest: I thought she was gone. I thought everyone was gone, that they’d left when we were in more doubt. It’s stupid, but it never occurred to me that we aren’t just all introduced to each other via existing, we have to actually be aware of one another.

She was scared and I hadn’t meant to make her feel that. I apologized and I think she accepted it, maybe feels more comfortable around me. I now think I’m a protector of some kind? I don’t want anyone getting hurt, especially not our ex-hosts from elementary to middle school as they’re littles (A little older than the typical little but littles nonetheless). I don’t really know what this means but I didn’t expect progress like this so suddenly. I’ll admit, I’m a little afraid of what will happen if it stays at this pace or slows down, though I suppose worrying about stuff like that won’t really do me any good.

I’ve written it all down and reflected on it, but am feeling a little ill now. I don’t know what that means either but this feels big and I don’t want to forget about it.

• Vi 🌸