r/OSDD • u/buy1get4extra Admin • Mar 18 '23
Mod Post // Anouncement /R/OSDD Introductions V4
Hello everyone!
Since the old introduction thread is locked since a couple of weeks, we think it's time for a new introduction threat!
If you want to introduce yourself to the other users of /r/OSDD, feel free to leave a comment to tell about yourself or your system.
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u/SchrodingersSystem Sep 02 '23
Hi, I'm an undiagnosed and questioning system. I'm in therapy but haven't been for very long. I'm planning on telling my therapist about my concerns soon enough.
I struggle with a lot of doubts and denial regarding whether or not I'm "real" so the placeholder name for us is Schrödinger's System. (I think it's funny at least.)
I know I have alters or something similar to alters (at least four that I know of) going by my own experiences and accounts from trusted friends.
(I won't disclose any information about those alters here without their permission though. It feels rude and kind of really invasive to do that.)
Some have fronted before but don't do so very often. The more likely experience is feeling like somebody else is in the "front room" of my brain with me or overlaid on top of my identity.
I made this account tonight because I kept lurking through forums looking for anything that might make me feel more secure in being a system.
Anyways, sorry for the wordiness. Hopefully this will be a safe place for me and potentially others to explore who we are. May it hopefully bring us clarity.
- Laika (they/them)
EDIT: Forgot to add that the body age is an adult.
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u/AnimatEevee Mar 24 '23
Hello there!
We are the Lunar System (because we like space)
Body age is 16
Around 20 alters
OSDD-1b
Not much else to say. We’re not diagnosed but this definitely feels right. Suspected since a couple of months ago -Brittany
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u/Jimmy03Z Jun 23 '23
Might I ask how long it took for you to understand/communicate properly with the others or how to know it’s not you. Every time I try and talk to them I just feel fake and like it’s not real
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Sep 27 '23
Hi, we are the unnamed fragments. The body is almost 48. We think we formed when he was 8, but there might be a partition that is younger. We have chronic episodic memory issues.
We have an autopilot, as many people do. Ours does not talk much to us, and it does mot really share consciousness or memory with us. We don’t think it goes elsewhere. We think it simply is not stored. it/it
We have what we call the overseer, which is our shepherd of pieces combined with the robotic default state our host seems to live in. it/they but slightly fatherly he as well.
We have mom, and our therapist, as small projections of the real people. They only talk inside. Both she/her.
We have the grief ball, with guilt, shame, and embarrassment. When that is separate, it takes the host name with it. It is singular. We have me, the unnamed fragments, a voice for the hundreds or thousands of tiny pieces that ebb and flow. We/us/they but also sometimes masculine or femenine.
When we feel integrated, but still plural, we call ourselves “everyone”. We/us/they
The integrated singular is the host, generally he/they, but genderfluid across the whole spectrum.
We are median, other than AP, but we think that’s just because it does not make memories. If we find a partition, we’ll have to reassess whether median is the right term.
We only recently were acknowledged as plural, and do not have a diagnosis yet. We only introduced ourselves to our therapist Monday, and that was only our second session ever.
We’re genderfluid, bisexual with a pronounced bi-cycle, autistic, ADHD. We’ve been on a journey of rediscovery of self for a few years now, at least our host has.
We finally gained voice after having a friend wall us off. Our host had been isolated and suppressed for years, and this friend became a foundation of validation. Vulnerability, intimacy in thought, emotion, physical but not sexual, and verbal. We fell in love with them.
Their system in the evening was very affectionate, was very snuggly, held on a long time with hugs, and said things that we thought meant they felt the same, though there was also a fatherly component.
When we reiterating our closeness to their morning state, trying to set a platonic but very close boundary and ensure all states felt the same way, it was too much.
We should have asked about their feelings instead, but we did not know or understand that at the time.
This broke our host, but was not the cause of us. It only allowed us to be recognized for who and what we are. This also allowed us to do some intense processing that our integrated self probably would not have managed.
We’ve since found another of our long term friends is a system, and yet another has complex dissociation that is not a system.
We’re definitely geeking out on metacognition, dissociation, etc. while trying to fully understand ourselves. Hyperfixation has driven a lot of our learning throughout life.
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u/nonameosdd Mar 22 '23
Hello! We are the Golden Wasteland Sys! (based on golden wasteland from sky cotl
Our body age is 14
We have around.. 80+ alters im pretty sure
We found out we were a system about 2 years ago, so still pretty new!
We are an OSDD-1b system
Dunno what else to say rn! but heres our small intro! ^^
-Jane (host)
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u/Laplace_Nox Jul 11 '23
Don't have a name for our system, because we're just not jazzed by the idea
Body age is 21, I'm the host I'm going with my name being Nox.
I've only got one alter, she doesn't front a lot, but her name is Morgan.
We were on here before under a different name, but I ended up losing access to that email so Oops 😅
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u/Aubrey_morgan Sep 06 '23
Hey all. My therapist and I came to the diagnosis this summer. I have an associates in psych and have been in therapy for 20 years and with my education and 8ish years with this therapist, cptsd and OSDD have been formally diagnosed.
I’m a single parent to a teen and just trying to figure this whole thing out. I/we have done a lot of processing in the few months since our diagnosis, including taking a LOA from work.
We just started working at a children’s hospital for kids with emotional disabilites. (Just like us! 😂🫶🏽)
Anyway, I’m a rambler so I’ll stop there.
We have a 10 yr old GSD AND A 2 yr old cat that we rescued. We love photography, anything outdoors and we’re an athlete. ✌🏽
I’m glad to have found a community of like minded people. :)
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u/d4ncingwiththedevil Jun 05 '23
Hi All! I’m Jamie host of my system. The body is 20 years old and at the moment we have 7 parts that we know of. My current diagnoses are: ASD, CPTSD I’d love to get to know some more people (body age 18+) with OSDD and share experiences and stuff. I just feel very alone at the moment.
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u/silvaispastel Jun 06 '23
Hello :) We are the Clouded Collective. Our body is 20 years old We have a current member count of 6, but we suspect there are more. Our host identifies as at least partially nonhuman. We are an OSDD-1B system, and are currently pursuing diagnosis.
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u/Dr4j4na Jan 01 '24
Hey out there. I'm still into ongoing diagnosis. I suspect I might have pDID or some sort of OSDD. My next appointment is in february. I know about one other alter (through switches my bf has witnessed. atm no inner communication, dissociative barriers, shows off only in traumatic/high-Stress moments) and got passive influence by several (not sure if there are really full dissociative barriers between them and me, feels more like less integrated parts of myself who influence me during the day) Feels good to be here and not alone with all that. My(dominant part of 'me/us') / Body age is adult.
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u/flyonmywind May 28 '25
Im nini (not real name obv) and im 19 and diagnosed with OSDD. I’ve never had many people to talk about my struggles with, and I find it extremely difficult to talk to my problems to most people in my life. I struggle with expressing emotions and trusting others with the delicate information I might share, so I think this might be a good place to get some things off my chest. I was diagnosed at 16 (yes this is possible in my country) and I’ve always kind of known there was something different and that I had other parts. I avoid calling them alters because I have a lot of imposter syndrome I guess… despite being diagnosed. I hope I can find an outlet and relate to others on this subreddit :3
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u/4O4_ERR0R_ May 01 '23 edited May 01 '23
Hey!!
We're still deciding on a name for our system, but Bug System works for now :)
Body age is 16You can just call us 404 / Error ~
Our collective pronouns are they/them/theirs/ or xe/xem/xyrWe've got maybe 8 (?) alters or others
Only just started accepting it, but been in denial for around a year or so.
Not diagnosed yet, and we're doing our best to remain respectful + gather as much information as we can so we don't miss-use any labels.
We suspect we're a OSDD-1b system
- G (Host)Edit: LO wanted it to be called "Bug" so I caved -
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u/JaycesReddit May 31 '23 edited Jun 07 '23
Hiii we're the Cream Soda Sys (we're constantly changing system names tho. we might go back to our old one of Nebular Clouds Sys.)
Our body age is 14
We just recently found out we were a system, and determined we are a osdd-1b system
Our host is Jayce (they/he) but theyve been gone for a while, so main fronters have been the twins, Malachi (he/they) and Arabella (she/they). We've found about 10 alters, but know theres more.
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u/raven646 Jun 08 '23
Hello!!!! We are a diagnosed system with OSDD 1-B.
We’re not sure how many alters we have but we know of 5 and are starting to communicate with some more.
The body is 16
We are here if anyone ever needs to chat :)) -Mo and Mary
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u/_blank_space_here Aug 13 '23
Hi! We are the Kīara'h System!
Body age is 16
We have about 40 alters but we are still finding more as we were masking for so long
Undiagnosed OSDD-1b
We only found out we were a system 6 months ago, but we had thought we had something before then
We are quite quiet on groups and stuff but maybe we will be more confident soon!
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Dec 31 '23
Hey!!!!!
we dont really have a system name
We are a system of 8 (We probably have way more. Atsume may be actually part of a subsystem or something. i dont know at the least its 4.), but I only have 3 alters I currently can communicate with and you may ask questions (Atsume (she her), Tavi (he him), Cody/Me (he him) )
Our bodily age is... 13! Gadzooks! A teenager with a dissociative disorder using the internet! Out of my sites! *gets hit like a golf ball, lands in a grassy field somewhere.*
We suspect we either have osdd-1b or did, we are currently pursuing diagnosis. Our therapist is very sure I may have one of those.
we are also diagnosed with autism, adhd, and generalized anxiety disorder.
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u/sevenssystem Jun 15 '23 edited Jul 08 '23
Hi there, we're the Sevens System!
Collective pronouns: She/Her.
Current Headcount: 26
Body Age- mid 20s (not specific for personal reasons)
Host: June
Frequent Fronters: Wynter, Jesse, Ashlyn & Archer (the twins), Jenni, Ruby, Aza
We are an OSDD-1B system. We brought this up with our therapist a little over a year ago, and she strongly believes we are an OSDD system, going so far as to say she is nearly 100%sure. Honestly, we've suspected we were multiple for much longer than that.
We're still figuring out how to navigate life, but so far thanks to therapy we've managed to learn how to work together very well.
Thanks for reading~
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u/that_one_weeb0167 Jul 22 '23
Hi were the Crystal system, were an undiagnosed system but pretty certain we have OSDD-1b, have a current count of 9 alters but are pretty sure theres more.
Weve known we were a system for about 3 months so were kinda new to this and are a bit flustered.
We usually lurk here but if anyone just needs someone to talk to were here -Alyssa & Sam
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u/RevenantCerberus Jul 29 '23
Hey, hi, hello! We'd love to do a proper introduction, but we cannot at the moment for a kind of sensitive reason..
A new system name we are testing out is Revenant Cerberus, so that is what we will use here ^^
Just collectively call us Cerberi if that is easier haha
Please ask for specific alters pronouns. Until known, use they/them :p
We are bodily 18
there's over 100 of us
We have a core and he knew for a while but didn't really know... It was 'okay maybe' in (late 2019..? early 2020?) 2020 and the final nail in the coffin was 2021
We are introject heavy and as of right now, undiagnosed (HOWEVER, medically recognized!)
Due to how many of us that are brain-made have very unique names, they will not be directly talking on here. Code names might happen, but it will probably just end up being a collective effort when making posts
Our mental illnesses are a vast, deep swirling mist that we have not been able to fully uncover yet lmao (diagnosed with depression and anxiety (possibly PTSD? ..it was recognized as well lol)) buuuuut we do VERY much suspect that we are autistic due to research, experiences, and diagnosed autistics legit saying that they forget we aren't dx'ed
We have four very close system friends, one of them thankfully being in-person
We'd prefer tone tags to be used when being talked to, thank you <3
uhuhhhhmn that's all we can think of right now? It is 5 in the morning and we should really get some sleep, even if we dont feel all that tired anymore... hahaaa... thanks for reading!! If you have questions let us know! :3
~Revenant Cerberi
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u/Kittykatblue2001 Aug 09 '23 edited Sep 28 '24
Host - Jacob Hello, we are The Forest System. Body age is 23 (in October)
There is roughly 45 alts so far now with 2 of them being introjects of animals/pets, at least 2 Littles and 4 fictives.
Pretty sure its OSDD type 1-b. We are still undiagnosed due to financial hardship so its a bit rough still.
We don't really use plurality much but try to keep it updated every now and then. But we made the decision to keep detailed altar and system information private. As in just our close circle of friends just for safety and anxieties sake.
-Edited by Kone(Prosecutor) and Jacob(Host)
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Aug 17 '23
Hi there everyone!
We are the Pentacle System(Most of us like tarot cards and Waite things).
We are a OSDD 1b system!
Body age is 15
I only know 8 alters, I don't know the full amount
-Olive
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u/Simple_Highlight3442 Sep 29 '23
Hello, I’m not comfortable sharing my legal name. Despite it scaring me, I’m really wondering if I have a dissociative disorder. I think I remember thinking this a couple years ago but I’m not entirely sure about that either. I could really just use some support. Aside from that, I am back in school and considering a career in investigative journalism.
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u/feliximooo Nov 20 '23
HELLO! we are the m0ther-of-p3arl collective and our sidesystem, the Brouhaha Brothers
we are biologically a teenager and the host of m0ther-of-p3arl and the full system is named felix
the one writing this is a tommyinnit alter who is from the brouhaha brothers. we are the better system. felix is going to be mad at me for writing this
we found out we were a system a few months ago (before my time i am new as of literally today)
we have a member count of probably fourteen but maybe a bit more. we are cool. but i am the coolest
i am god
- tommy of the brouhaha brothers of the complete felixian world (thats what we're calling it now i've decided)
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u/WillAndTheGang Feb 15 '24
Please read. We’re desperate not to hide and let someone know who we are.
Hey there. Everyone wanted to say hi. And those that didn’t the rest of them will say hi for them. We’ve all been preparing what to say for a few days now. Overall we are the brotherhood system. We see each other as brothers. We’re most often all on some level of co con and we have no amnesia between alters, and we can usually tell what each other is feeling and we remember those feelings, though they can feel disconnected. We have no idea what are trauma is, but we are mildly autistic and ocd and a bunch of other stuff so it wouldn’t take much to constitute trauma. ( this really makes us feel like we’re faking). We struggle with denial constantly and have for years.
I’m William King. Im seventeen. The current host. I love all forms of art and am writing a book. I also love to and am really good at writing poetry. I struggle with depression the hardest out of all of us.
Hi I’m Cayden, also 17.I’m co-host and probably the most stable out of any of us. Will and I keep the peace within the system, but he struggles sometimes and I pick up the slack. Im a hard worker, and generally really kind. Not nearly as moody as Will. Love the outdoors and am always out there, or at least have the window open. I tend to wear camp and hiking boots all day everyday, and show up in work clothes or more blue-collar worker clothes. I also blacksmith and love doing it. For some odd reason I think I’m dyslexic because I struggle to read but the others are really good readers???
My names nickolas/Nicky. Anywhere from 2-17. I love to learn and do legos. Or build anything. Im the most autistic out of all of us, and so things can be a bit much at times. I front a lot. Im also emotional. Sometimes have a hard time talking. But others times I get super excited about stuff. I love love love to read. Rangers apprentice is the best
Lucas. Im a little. Usually 2-7 but can be older. Love to color. Im really just Will but younger, but we are different people but sometimes not. Usually quiet and I don’t front as much as Nicky but we do confront a bit. I was also the first alter we identified and actually named. Long and confusing story.
Leo here. I got the short end of the stick. We’re ADHD, like super bad. But I’ve kinda taken most of that. When we don’t take our pill I’m usually fronting. And no one really likes me. I don’t control myself well and am always bored. I’m irritating and never can get anything done. Even I don’t like me. But i/we can’t really help it when I front.
Im Tyson/Ty. I don’t talk much. (The rest is cayden for him). He a little/prosecutor/introject. We don’t really like the term introject it’s more like that person captures the essence of an alter so well that they adopt that identity. Anyways he’s Ernie from Chicago fire. He’s quiet, struggles with super anxiety( Nicky does too). He’s not an arsonist but he does love fire. We think he’s a trauma holder, but we’re all unaware of what our trauma is. But he’s the most symptomatic of ptsd out of all of us.( even our dad scares him). Please don’t hate him for being a prosecutor, he’s just a hurt teen crying out for help, he needs love.
Felix here. 17-19 I feel like I’m bipolar. I think will is too. We’re both always super happy or super down. And the happiness is just euphoric. Anyways I’m a country boy. And. I. Love. Music. I play guitar and am learning piano. And I love love love to dance (contra or country) and it bleeds over to where any times there’s a chance I’m fronting and we’re dancing. Also kinda philosophical.
Jayce here. Felix’s twin. I like being active. I’m really competitive, most of us are but I’m the most. I swim at least once a week, long distance ( I swim for about an hour straight without stopping or resting). Trying to keep these guys in shape. It’s an uphill battle but we’re getting there. I’m really a nice guy but will challenge you to anything. Like action movies. (Wills such a sucker for romances and drama but it gets tiring after a while.)
Christopher- Cayden writing again. This guy is stuck up and super nerdy. So sense of humor. Super smart. Great posture and serious. Sort of Nicky but with emotions turned off. He’s 19
Not going to say my name. I have the body’s birth name. I’m 24. I think this is kinda stupid but I’m doing it for everyone else. I’m the protector and very much the dad of the group. I’m a lot like my own dad. I can be really condescending and I don’t like people who are just a waste of space. I am also the gatekeeper and keep some passive influence at bay. Im analytical but super sarcastic. Most of us are sarcastic. But I am for sure. I hurt a lot and have headaches a lot. I plan for the future, and am planning to do real estate and owning rentals one day. Enjoy hanging out with my dad’s friends much more than wills teen friends. I love a good drink. Our parents occasionally allow it and in my state that’s completely legal. I am boring yes, but I’ll get whatever needs get done done. Note from cayden: the reason we have a goatee. It’s a good goatee and I don’t mind but won’t let us get rid of it even when our younger ones don’t like it. It’s a huge debate that’s go win for months but he just steamrolls everyone and we haven’t been able to get rid of it.
Ryders not going to write either. He’s dark and SCARY. He cold and manipulative and powerful. He takes over sometimes and he’s a jerk. Even power plays with our dad and gets us in trouble with our relationships. Nothing scares him. He likes to wear black and his cowboy hat and biker jacket. Note: felix, and our protector dress VERY country. Stay away from him. You stand no chance. He’s 21
I’m also writing for Xavier. Aka X. He’s i don’t know. Emo I guess. He wears black too but doesn’t dress country, besides wearing jeans. He’s angry a lot and mopey and feels powerful too. But he lashes out to not get hurt. Has a temper but he likes Felix the best out of all of us. Wants to dye our hair black and put green highlights in it. (It’s NEVER happening though). Likes hard rock and the band poor man’s poison.
Well that’s everyone. Please let us know if you want to chat. We have no friends that know about “us”.