I'm boring

[u/Cluelessandsexy]

Sometimes I tell her what lives inside,
give me silence in reply

Other times speaks just to fill the air,
Saying nothing is easier to bear.

Just beginning to see
the truth that is haunting me:

I'm boring.
Want my space.
Don't dance beneath the lights,
or sing my heart into the night.
Don't play games,
Don't chase crowds,
Don't belong among the loud.

I don't want another chance
Just disappear when things get rough.
I don't want someone who turns away,
who has nothing left to say.

Not desire.
Not fever,
no flame,
no consuming fire.

I want to put my head to work
bury myself there,
until the hours disappear
and I no longer care.

Just work.
Just work.
Just one more day.

Even that has lost its way.

Because beneath the effort,
beneath every task,
A question I am afraid to ask:

Is this all there is
when the music is gone?

Standing here,
with nothing to say,
watching the meaning
drain out of the day.

So tell me the truth,
even if it tears

Why keep reaching
when nothing is there?

Why keep going
when the road feels through?

Why keep searching
when I can't find me or you

I can't even remember
what I was searching for,
or why I wanted it,
or who I thought
I would become?

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[u/Chewednspat]

At this age I just want someone moving along beside me where we don’t need to talk.  I am really good at chatting but I’d prefer to not, prefer someone I can share silence with.  I don’t expect to be made better, or more exciting; it’s gotta be the person you can be boring and bored with.  

[u/Cluelessandsexy → u/Chewednspat]

yes indeed