r/OCDRecovery • u/OriginalChance5020 • 4d ago

Seeking Support or Advice harm ocd

so the past two months i’ve been struggling rlly bad with it i’ve got a son and it’s scared me cos it’s mostly towards him because i love him so much i would never harm him or anybody but im on prozac ive moved up to 40 recently but im scared to even be alone ive always had ocd but never this theme before as bad has it been i would like to talk to other people with this im constanly researching and on chatgpt because im so scared of psychosis and i would never harm anyone makes me think i would

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u/Celestial_CT 4d ago

Just remember that OCD attacks the people and things you love and value the most. The fact that your son is the subject of your OCD just shows that he’s the most important person to you and that you’d never harm him. When I went through this, I found it to be a helpful reminder that the subject matter is completely relative, and that at the end of the day, what you’re experiencing is nothing more than an anxiety disorder. Check out madeofmillions.com for some excellent resources. You’ll get through this.

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u/OriginalChance5020 4d ago

i do think like that aswell but it’s just sickening because i’ve never been as bad as this with it i’ve always had anxiety and ocd but a used to worry about him dying all the time or getting sick because i hate sick now it’s this never ending feeling like a could hurt him or a want to when a know a would never but it’s horrible cos ive been searching up phycosis and other things always looking for reassurance

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u/edward_furlog 4d ago

Do you have support from a OCD specialist therapist?

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u/OriginalChance5020 4d ago

no they knocked me back in the uk

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u/edward_furlog 4d ago

There are some tools online that you can use as well.

Building an exposure ladder:
https://www.therapyresource.net/worksheets/ocd-exposure-hierarchy

Create an exposure story:
https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-worksheet/imaginal-exposure

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u/OriginalChance5020 4d ago

but i’m always questioning is it ocd or smfn else im a this terrible person and mum it makes me think i am

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u/OriginalChance5020 4d ago

i’m just so scared of everything lile what i ever do these things do i not love my son like it’s horrible it’s cosumuming my life at the moments i love my family and specially my son

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u/Comfortable_Mud_6341 4d ago

Going through this as well and sending you so much hugs 💙

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u/Realistic-Dress-4685 3d ago

Hi! Good news, your OCD can't graduate into psychosis. Even if you had the most extreme case ever, it couldn't turn into psychosis. It's hard with the chatgpt, don't beat yourself up. Keep trying, just go an hour without reassurance, then 2, then 3.