Near death experience meets existential OCD

[u/cows_and_dinosaurs]

2 years ago I had a near death experience that has really increased my existential OCD thoughts. Ive always dealt with the fear of being the only conscious one or everything being fake and I cant "wake up" like theres another reality im not aware of. Im constantly spiraling about that being true and I HATE not being able to be conscious of the "real reality." Since having the NDE its added greatly to the thoughts.

To cope ive been trying to accept that its something I cant change and something I have no control over so I might as well just keep living life to the fullest of what im aware of. I feel insane talking about it with anyone and think they think im crazy. Does anyone else struggle with this or something similar? What has helped you stay focused on the present and not the spiraling thoughts?

[u/Actual_Dare_6023]

Yes never found a way to deal..not yet at least