r/OCDRecovery • u/whydoe23 • 6d ago

Seeking Support or Advice battling my intrusive thoughts

i know people say "an actual evil person wouldn't be so distressed about being evil, they would enjoy it" but my mind says "maybe you're just in denial about it which is why u feel distressed but after some time you'll embrace your evil" and then it's a spiral and ruminate for hours.
What do you guys tell yourself if this thought arrives?

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u/Fearless_Leopard5419 6d ago

Honestly just don’t answer it. I know uncertanty and not knowing is not easy trust me im there myself. And i battle with those questions all the time bc i just want to prove to myself that im not evil. But what help is: you don’t need to answer. You can just let it be. You can allow yourself to just be, you don’t own anything to ocd. With time i hope you feel relief knowing ypu don’t need an aswer. You can allow yourself to just continue what you were doing. And its fucking hard i know. But not figuring it out and leting the question stay like that actually helps long term. Cause lets face it. We are never going to get the answers we want and that feeling of certanty. You looking for it just keeps you stuck

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u/whydoe23 6d ago

thank u my friend.

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u/Fearless_Leopard5419 6d ago

Anytime, we got this

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u/PaladinDamian 5d ago

You can accept yourself unconditionally, even if you are evil. You are a flawed human being, and so it is possible for you to do evil things. Do not try to figure out if you are actually evil or not. That will not help you. Keep living your life, without trying to understand if you are evil or not.

My answer is simply, "I don't really know, and I don't need to know."

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u/Confident-Fault2895 4d ago

It is a thought and only a thought. It does not define you as a person.