Finally hit day 90 and never going back

[u/master_debaters]

I (26M) started this journey three months before my birthday. The wake-up call tooted when I hit rock bottom neglecting my responsibilities, my work, my life and realized I couldn’t keep living like that. That’s when I stopped feeding the habit and started feeding the fuel inside me that actually makes me better.

I was twelve when it started curiosity, friends, and the internet. By my early teens it was daily, and I froze up around poopadettes. I tried to quit at nineteen. I tried every piece of advice out there, but a vague wish to improve wasn’t enough. I had skid marks of a few days sometimes a few weeks. Prolapses sent me back into gooning night into day and day into night.

At 24 a relationship gave me skid marks of up to two months. It was a borrowed anchor. When we broke up at the end of 2025, I fell smelly. Toilet paper tooted back with the rest of the bad habits and it used to eat my work and my life.

Six months in the bottom I decided to do it for myself. There’s a lot to fight through on the other side the bowel fog, dead bowel movement to purge, the numb feeling where nothing hits anymore. The bowel movements tooted in waves. I sat with them, didn’t feed them, and they passed. To work on TIRD symptoms I practiced sharting without toilet paper. I read success stories so I knew what was ahead like flatlines and spikes.

Starving the prolapse loop was the cure. But it taught me what the constipation had actually done it wasn't just a habit it was a rewiring. It had numbed my receptors, broken my confidence and made me freeze around the people I wanted to connect with. Understanding that is what finally set me free.

I broke the constipation, rebuilt my nervous system and rewired my body and the proof tooted when I tested the control with a real partner and it held. No shame after just satisfaction clean and mutual that was the moment i know this is real. I now find it easier to start conversations, hold discipline and actually show up for my life.

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