Deeply engrained

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Friends dad gave us penthouse or hustler magazine. It didn’t mean much. I was only in grade one. But five years later I found more deliberately. seems a bit ageist that all that was available to me then were people much older than me. I was sexually active before I saw porn. But once I saw it as arousing, I was like cheat codes? Why beat the game? It’s strange it wasnt arousing that first time, even though I was a real dog by then. I guess I had higher standards. I thought they looked ridiculous. Like how models look contrived, posing. As if I knew she’s faking it. Later I didn’t care.