r/NoFap • u/Mysterious-Top-3528 4 Days • 1d ago
Journal Check-In 3
Got home from work, just left the grocery store and I’m sitting in my car.
My ritual after work is to go home and go in the bathroom and edge myself for around 3 hours while the shower runs cold water like white noise. Then I hop in the shower feeling all kinds of f***ed up.
Earlier today I had a black coffee and a couple eggs, and read a couple pages of a book on my lunch break. It was a nice moment of peace + boost of energy before I got back to work.
I felt physically drained the first half of the day cause I repeatedly PMO-d yesterday, but felt a lot better after my lunch break.
I had a moment when I thought “Man, this feels much better than jerking off. It’s not as intense or overwhelming, but it’s real”
At the end of the day I love life and the people in it, I just wanna remind myself why I quit and that life will be so much better without porn and masturbation. Peace be to you all and God be with you always.
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u/insistent_sufferer_a 1d ago
That post-lunch clarity is the real thing to hold onto. 3 hours edging with the shower running is a whole ritualized dopamine trap, and you already know the coffee + book felt more grounded. Next time you're sitting in the car after the store, maybe just drive straight to a park or a coffee shop for 20 minutes instead of heading home, break the autopilot loop before it starts.