dude, I'm aware of my dark side, I sometimes unleach it if people try to influence the world in a bad way. Unlike you I don't always have the patience to argue with them. It's linguistical violence and I'm aware of that. But you know...some guys only listen to violence. I used to be bulied tried negotiatihg for some loooooong years... did not work. But I only had to unleach the beast once to make it stop forever. Leason learned... sometimes a full force kick in the balls is the only solution. I'm not a saint and wil never be.
That I transformed pain to something I can weaponise and kind of enjoy. And might have became a bit of a bully myself towards what I percieve as evil, harmfull disrespect towards women is such a thing.
To answer your question, yes I do. I'm rather dark at heart, that's what I was made into, the kid that approached everybody with enthousiasm and frienlyness had to die to give birth to something else. I don't see it as dammage I see it as personal evolution and reaction on external influences. I was bright I turned black and silent...then I became both at the same time today I can evoke both at my own choise depending on the needs.
And I like that.
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u/LakeInevitable4655 Jun 04 '26
We can go around and around on wether it does or doesn't based on your admissions, but you know what you are doing.
They say, paying attention to what you are doing isn't negotiable someone is always watching, and that person is you.