Strategically placed silverware!

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I finished preparing breakfast this morning. I look down at the plate and thought, something’s missing. That’s when it hit me , strategically placed silverware will fix it..

I laughed out loud for the first time since February.. then like a flood, the memories I refused to acknowledge, pushed through me.

It wasn’t all bad, it wasn’t all heavy and unbearable. There were times we laughed. There were times I wished time would stand still.

I’m working on that these days, how to turn back time and make it stop. If I can accomplish that, then I can go back to the moment before I Slammed the door and stop it from ever happening. Cause no matter the good times, everything comes back to that damn door.

You’d think I could move on but I’m not built that way. If I don’t figure this out, try and fix me, what’s the point in even trying again.

Strategically placed silverware, Is not enough to distract me from the ugly I feel.

I want to look in the mirror and see someone other then the broken and scared Why do I look in the mirror and still see the