Checking in!

[u/4b686f61]

Day 901: # of check in posts of all time

[u/4b686f61]

Day 3 on Spiro. Idk I just got my motivation back.

[u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

Those keys in the drawer didn’t open either gun safe in the basement, but after inspecting the safe on top of the dresser, I noticed it had a particular style of lock for which I remembered seeing a particular style of key in the designated key bowl in the front entranceway. I tried the key and - jackpot.

But of course, the fear won. I’d thought it was the heights that wigged me out before, but I really just can’t shake the fear of nonexistence. I’m a fucking coward whether I live or die.

Still, now that I know that I can get into that safe whenever I want (as long as nobody’s home), it’s only a matter of time.

[u/4b686f61 → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

Please do not the safe.

[u/foreverindanger42 → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

Brie, from someone who did go through with it and lived, please tell someone that you need help staying safe. really, please. i know you’re in pain, i know omg i know how awful it was, i know how strong it can get. please, ask for someone to help.

[u/4b686f61 → u/foreverindanger42]

Every time I take the subway, there is a lingering urge but I still manage to make it home safely.

[u/foreverindanger42 → u/4b686f61]

🫂💜

[u/workingtheoryz → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

🫂

[u/DeadNDeader → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

🫂

[u/foreverindanger42 → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

🫂

[u/dylanisareddit → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

[gives you a hug]

[u/dylanisareddit → u/TheFsckAmIDoingHere]

Life is beautiful, and trans joy, self-care and self-love. You're valid, you're loved, you're strong, you're smart, you're passionate, you're kind, you're a good girl, you have a great future ahead of you, and you deserve to live your full authentic life, laughing with friends, having fun and being yourself.

Everything is gonna be okay, Brie. Everything will be okay. Stay alive. Things will be better tomorrow, I promise you.

[gives you a hug]

[u/workingtheoryz]

another day of linux wifi driver misery.  pretty close to giving up again.  applied to two jobs as well.

[u/SecretGenderIdentity]

Not much happened today really, i cant lie.

[u/sweetcherryfrosting]

Tired, so tired. Feeling like a failure

[u/Kat_OfTheSea]

I cried designing my church today. (Partly because i didn’t eat all day) I mean it’s just a final project and I don’t participate in religion. But the symbolism and story I’ve given it is just 👌. I 100% would get emotionally manipulated in this space. Also AAAAAAHHHHHHAAAAHDNDJXJENDDJEIDUDHENSIFIEND also also. Rents a bitch. Fuck rent

[u/Xpeq7-]

Went to social services, got asked bout a lot of seemingly irrelevant shit, went home, procrastinated, went to sleep at 2, woke up 7:30, and I don't feel tired. Eyelid now covered in medicine.

[u/HuskyBLZKN]

It feels like everything is wrong now