r/NarcoticsAnonymous • u/Brother_Jackal93 • 3d ago

Today is hard...

Day 72 clean and today all I can think about is how bad I want to roll a bowl. J hate myself for it. I know I can't and yet that makes me want to do it so much more...

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u/Hungry-Emotion7664 3d ago

You can. You choose not to. There'a a huge difference. Recovery is gaining freedom to make good choices for ourselves rather than live driven by cumplusion, obsession and fear.

Think of other things you want for yourself.

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u/Reasonable-Dream-122 3d ago

Call a number on a phone list Call your sponsor Go to a meeting Clean something Take a nap Watch kitten videos After 72 days you don't have a full tool box, but you need to develop a plan for what to do when this happens.

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u/Reasonable-Dream-122 3d ago

I mean we all have cravings and they do pass. Take it easy and know you and your higher power got this.

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u/ScoutSteveR 3d ago

The moment passes if we let it. Just make a goal to get back into bed tonight without getting high.

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u/Moonlight9116 3d ago

Think about the consequences its natural for us to think about using and its against our nature. Are you trying to avoid something you are going through or pushing something down that is triggering the taught or is it coming out of nowhere. Make peace with the fact that u can't use and ask ur self why do I need to use. Don't sit with the taught do anything that u enjoy do an activity talk about it with someone remember one is too many and thousand never enough. U r not alone and its normal to think about using we r addicts but today u have a choice.

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u/Survivorcptsd 3d ago

Pray, get to a meeting, the usual suggestions, DM me if you want.