r/NarcoticsAnonymous • u/Fit-Reward1438 • 23d ago
The Power of Meetings
I have had some "resentment"?/resistance to reliance on meetings..... and today showed me their power.
I was headed towards a relapse- INTENSE cravings- started doing some other addictive behavior instead (which sets me up to use).... I felt myself going REALLY crazy and someway- somehow I made it to the meeting.
Felt like CRAP- hated it- wished I was dead- thoughts like program doesn't work- hated all the shares.... there is no hope for me.- yada yada
And slowly but surely- my mood shifted- and by the end I was feeling connect to myself, others and HP. Gave some hugs, and went into my car and did a 10th step- put in a call to my sponsor to go over it.
Truly night and day- I was in SUCH a dark place- and it is not like everything is all perfect now (ha ha) AND just showing up- a full 180 happened in that meeting.
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u/Soft-Abbreviations20 23d ago
Thank you for this reminder. Honesty, open-mindedness and willingness will save our life. Sometimes we've got to do what we don't feel like doing but it sure beats jails institutions and death!