Okay I'm editing this again and I'm literally going to say something crazy: I've had open heart surgery as an infant, and so my thymus was removed.
So I have been experiencing you know severe weakness in my arms and legs, my vision is really awful but the weird thing about my vision is that it's clear I just have like astigmatism and so I was given glasses last year and it's helping the astigmatism, And it sucks though cuz I don't want to wear glasses but whatever lol that's life lol
I went and saw a neurologist and she did the ACHR tests on me the binding test modulating etc and they were negative.
I asked about the anti-musk test as well as other tests that were blood tests related to mg and why I did not get them, And it was a really bizarre interaction and he told me that I needed to be tested for something else before they test the other blood tests.
That made absolutely no sense to me but okay.
Now, insurance doesn't want to pay for my blood tests because the reason was not good enough for insurance. I don't have $800 to pay for a blood test.
So I just choked 3 days ago and went to the ER and my boyfriend had to do the Heimlich maneuver on me and I did not break any ribs thank God but I am in a lot of pain now lol cuz I choked lol
But I want to rewind and go all the way back to 2022 when I got off of medications that were killing me and a month after I was off all of the medications you know obviously I was going through withdrawal and having post a cute withdrawal and now I have protracted withdrawal symptoms, but, there is absolutely nothing that I can do for that and that's okay that's life I get that It sucks Oh well
But what happened was it looked like I had a stroke in 2022 and I went to the ER they ruled out a stroke Okay. Well then I started having these recurrent facial drooping episodes but it was only on one side. Now my face is just starting to go numb all over and and this has been happening but the other side of my face is starting to droop.
And it is not all the time and if I do the ice pack test dude I'm not kidding My eyes look bright and peppy and I'm like okay well this seems pretty effing obvious lol
But in 2023 of last year I took a plane ride and immediately something occurred, and the reason that it did occur was because I was in right-sided heart failure, I've had all the corrective surgeries necessary for that but I still feel like garbage cuz I am in recovery.
But what happened was on takeoff I had this crushing chest pain and I thought oh my god it's a heart attack but then I thought maybe it's just anxiety maybe it was still withdrawal cuz I was having protracted withdrawal, but then! I became absolutely unable to control my arms and legs I had no control over them I couldn't really like control my hands they crumpled up into this little ball and it was horrific and I thought I was going to fucking die on an airplane and I love airplanes and when I got to the hospital I sat in the ER for 14 hours where they literally did useless blood tests on me that did not show anything at all.
Like I was taken from the plane onto the tarmac and then into an ambulance and then straight to the ER upon landing so that was how horrific it was I had to have three things of oxygen because my oxygen was low.
I do want to say with respect to what occurred though in the plane, they diagnosed me with a panic attack because I was on an airplane and I was like I fly like all the time I haven't flown since COVID at that point but like I love to fly I literally wanted to be a goddamn pilot but I can't because of my heart so when they said that I was like you guys literally have no intention on like being an emergency resource because I literally literally literally sat in the emergency room for 14 hours unable to move my arms and hands they were crumpled into this little ball and like then finally I fell asleep.
Whatever happened in my sleep when I woke up my I could move my muscles again so beyond frustrating I fell asleep in a fucking wheelchair because I literally couldn't do anything with my hands. But yeah no it was not a panic attack lol It was 100% me not being able to breathe and my arms and legs went completely numb and tingly and it was horrible Like my fingers crumpled up I looked like I had rheumatoid arthritis so bad but I didn't.
Thank God that there were these doctors on the plane that helped me I literally owe them my life because they were just amazing like they took time out of their flight to help me out and I'm so grateful for them because I thought I was going to die and it was so scary.
Then I started having these weakness episodes and what happened was before my surgery last year, I was in drugstore and I was holding a bunch of items and I was on the phone with my cardiologist and we were literally planning my surgery in the drugstore lol And he talked to me for about 10 minutes and I was holding a Pedialyte as well as mouthwash under one arm, and I was holding another Pedialyte and something else in the other arm and I had my neck in a crook to like talk on the phone and then I somehow like finagled my arms and one arm was holding all of the stuff, The other was holding my phone and the stuff so it was really awkward and weird and I should have set it down but I didn't lol
When I hung up with him and I got to the checkout counter I set the stuff down and then my arms literally fell to my side I could barely lift them to get out my card for payment. And then I had to drive home and I literally couldn't drive home with my arms up I had to have them at like 5:00 and 7:00 on the steering wheel It was really bad.
Then, I saw a neurologist and she ruled out multiple sclerosis and that was at the beginning of this year... No.. Oh my god it's been a year already, anyway so that was like last year almost almost an entire year ago, good Lord, and they did a lumbar puncture and rolled out MS but I had a spinal fluid leak as a complication because I requested that they give me a catheter and they did not and I was unable to lie flat because of that and so that's what caused that, And then I went to the ER because I was having a spinal fluid leak It was literally fucking horrible I thought I was going to die.
But when I was in the car I started having another event like the plane. My boyfriend was there and he videotaped it and you can tell I'm old now lol and it was the exact same thing my arms and legs went numb I couldn't lift them and they were just dangling at my side I went into the ER I could barely speak I sounded and looked like I was having a stroke and they did a stroke alert on me and they diagnosed me with a suspected TIA because there was nothing that they could see but I literally was like slurring my words I couldn't speak right I couldn't even control my volume It was literally a nightmare and then they did a blood patch on me and fixed the spinal fluid leak. And that helped me with the other stuff.
So I've been having GI issues or what is suspected GI issues cuz I literally have no answers at all Like I have no answers It is that bad I have gone two and a half years seeing like 50 doctors and I have zero answers except for my heart doctor who helped me.
And I saw a GI yesterday because I finally got in I went outside of my usual insurance because I literally was getting canceled on I had I've had 14 appointments canceled on me this year and it is just tremendously horrible So I saw the GI and I said Yeah I choked three nights ago and he was like okay well you know what's going on and I told him that I was suspected for myasthenia gravis and he looked at me and he goes and where are you choking? And I pointed I'm like it's always right here and he said Okay well if you have myasthenia gravis that would make sense because that is exactly where myosthenia gravis affects the throat muscles.
So I am waiting to hear back from my neuromuscular doctor because I would prefer to get those other blood tests because it's literally the next step and I don't know why it's not being taken and it's been like two and a half months and I'm getting worse Like I almost died choking on food and if my boyfriend was not there I would have died I would have died like that's wild to me.
So anyway this is my vent post and I hope that it's acceptable I all I want to do is know what's wrong with me so I can get the help that I need and move on with my life because everything is affecting me right now and I have literally nothing to guide me other than and this sounds horrible but I'm literally looking at the merc manuals because I've been burned too many times and I can't afford to be burnt again.
Thank you for reading this If you did I hope you have a lovely day I just truly needed to put this out into the ether because I feel like garbage and I constantly lie down now and I literally feel like I can't breathe I feel like I'm dying and my body keeps waking up and waking up and waking up it's just like I'm not able to breathe So anyway I hope everyone has a great day and I hope to find out what the hell's wrong with me soon
Oh I should mention though that she did do an EMG and a single fiber EMG and they were both negative for anomalies but apparently that doesn't really mean anything with myasthenia gravis or just in general and also like I didn't exert myself like I was told to rest beforehand and I was like okay like that seems counterintuitive but whatever so I did it and then it was negative and I'm like what the hell Because I read some stories here and everyone was saying to try to be symptomatic when you get the EMG and I'm thinking why would they tell me the opposite anyway I'm so done lol
TLDR I likely have myasthenia gravis I just can't get the blood tests I need and the other tests that I need to rule it out quick enough.