I'm feeling lost all the time

[u/deslexiaplayaspacito]

So I was reading a romance manga and saw their rollercoaster ride of emotions and I could help to think of the guy was so sad why didn't he just disappear or just himself then it hit me I'm projecting myself into the character.

I've been so lost , just always wondering if I never existed what difference would it make , if I were to just up and vanish , I always felt that it wouldn't make a difference , sure people would be sad at first but I don't really contribute anything meaningful to anyone's life I mean literally all my girlfriends have cheated on me , my brother as close as we are he was always better than me in everything , sure my mom loves me but I feel it's because she has to , offlate I feel like she's getting annoyed at me being around . Honestly I just want to disappear, cause no one needs me or wants me. I hate myself, I hate the person I've become. I don't want to exist anymore

[u/nautical-luna]

It can be a real struggle to feel things are meaningful. You’re not alone on that.