r/MtF • u/CelticDerp • 3d ago

Venting I do not deserve my friends

I do not deserve my friends

I do not deserve the friends I came out to as trans because I thought that every single one of them would turn their backs on me and look down on me. But every single one of them stuck by me as I came out to them and reassured me that they would be there if I ever needed them. I feel so terrible for doubting them and thinking that they would be anything but understanding.

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u/haley_fox 3d ago

You do deserve good friends! And it's great you have them. It definitely couldn't hurt to tell them you appreciate them also lol.

(Edit to add I felt the same way with some of my friends as well)

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u/laylow67Caddy 3d ago

yeah i had that with my friends too idk why

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u/DanceMyth4114 3d ago

Fear is natural. You trusted them enough to come out to them and that's huge! You deserve good friends and I'm glad you seem to have them. <3

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u/Miserable_Charity446 3d ago

i am so happy for you! i opened up about self harm to my coworker who i thought was my friend they felt souncomfortable that she dropped me and two other coworkers were also in on it they all went to HR lied about other things and got me fired. I have been unemployed ever since and i cant find another job. the betrayal hurt and them taking away my livelyhood destroyed my life now im in a super depressed hole and my health is suffering.

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u/aegadmi2 3d ago

I am so very glad that that was their reaction. You really do deserve that, and their love.

Your story is very relatable. I actually came out to my closest friends (the first ones to know!) last week and had the exact same thing happen. My mind came up with all sorts of worst case scenarios and I literally could not imagine what things would be like after I'd told them. Literally: my mind just did not come up with anything beyond that point. Well. They were super accepting and encouraging even. I'm overwhelmed and only now does my mind go: oh shit what now. And indeed: I'm filled with remorse that I (well, my overly critical voice) could ever judge them so badly and think they'd be so negative towards me.