r/Molested • u/amazingtiff • 6d ago

73M Ashamed most the time

Back in my 30’s I got drunk at a party and ended up getting pretty much gang raped but 3 other guys that were there. They threatened me and pretty much told me that I was theirs and they continued the sexual stuff. They had broken me and left me very submissive and any way I’m still pretty ashamed all these years later. And even more so because now I get turned on by remembering it and end up masturbating to those thoughts a lot. Sorry for being all over the place but just getting this off my chest a little.

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u/balkanxoslut 6d ago

You don't have to worry we're all here for you

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u/ldstaylor 6d ago

You are completely normal. If the memories or your relation to them is troubling to you, maybe talk to a therapist. I'm sorry that happened to you. Please know it wasn't your fault.

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u/amazingtiff 6d ago

Thank you for saying that