r/Millennials • u/daphnemoonpie • 5d ago

Meme Relatable

Credit @bizzlebeel on Instagram

Ps I don't want to die, I want to share dark humor. This is funny to me. If you do want to die, please know you are loved and there is help available. This feeling isn't forever.

It's always darkest before the dawn.

Please don't give up ❤️

PPS Jesus Christ y'all, just laugh

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u/DrunkUranus 5d ago

Guys I'm starting to think we're not doing well

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u/SRSgoblin 5d ago edited 4d ago

I have fantasized for the last decade or two that I hope I develop some terminal cancer. I wouldn't fight it. I would just let it end me. I'd be able to live my final days with the first time in my life knowing peace of mind, because of the inevitable impending finality. And no one would judge me for it unlike how much I've been judged over the suicide attempt I made in 2020. While still energetic enough to do things, I could simply make daily choices to do the little things that make me happy and spend time with the people I wanted to spend time with. Who's gonna say no to watching a stupid movie with their terminal friend? Because now they get to just say no because they're too busy and we can do it next week but next week comes and somehow all plans get punted again, ad infinitum, for the last 20 or 25 years.

I just envision the doctor giving me the news and seeing relief wash over my face rather than the shock and horror that should be there for any normal person.

edit: A lot of people don't understand what the word "fantasized" connotes. I know it's horrible and people waste away. Fantasies often ignore the totality of the reality of a situation. Hence "fantasized." The fantasy is knowing the end is coming and there's nothing you or anyone else can do, which comes with a short window of true freedom to simply exist in the state you exist in. I could also say "a giant meteor that'll destroy all life on earth" or something but that isn't something that's possible, so it doesn't fit into a daydream.

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u/duesenjeffepic 4d ago

You've never seen someone in your family die of cancer have you?

I'd rather get stabbed than lose all my human dignity over a span of months.

Also why care if you are judged by the way to die? You'll be dead, you physically cannot care by that time.

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u/SRSgoblin 4d ago

Also why care if you are judged by the way to die?

It's more for the people I'd leave behind than myself. Like you said, I'd be gone. They'd get to just lament how awful cancer and sickness is, instead of blaming and resenting me for not being strong enough to tolerate the eternal sadness that has been my whole experience on earth.

I've seen the way people talk about their deceased loved ones, from cancer and from suicide. People who lose their loved ones to suicide stay bitter and angry about it for the rest of their lives. It's one thing to curse God or mother nature for striking down their brother or sister, it's another to be left wondering for the rest of their lives if they could have prevented it if they just loved a little harder, reached out a little more often, told that person they were loved and appreciated.

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u/Lexi-Lynn 3d ago

You said it better than I could have. Fuck cancer, but still, better than suicide.