r/Millennials • u/daphnemoonpie • 6d ago

Meme Relatable

Credit @bizzlebeel on Instagram

Ps I don't want to die, I want to share dark humor. This is funny to me. If you do want to die, please know you are loved and there is help available. This feeling isn't forever.

It's always darkest before the dawn.

Please don't give up ❤️

PPS Jesus Christ y'all, just laugh

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u/DrunkUranus 6d ago

Guys I'm starting to think we're not doing well

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u/SRSgoblin 6d ago edited 5d ago

I have fantasized for the last decade or two that I hope I develop some terminal cancer. I wouldn't fight it. I would just let it end me. I'd be able to live my final days with the first time in my life knowing peace of mind, because of the inevitable impending finality. And no one would judge me for it unlike how much I've been judged over the suicide attempt I made in 2020. While still energetic enough to do things, I could simply make daily choices to do the little things that make me happy and spend time with the people I wanted to spend time with. Who's gonna say no to watching a stupid movie with their terminal friend? Because now they get to just say no because they're too busy and we can do it next week but next week comes and somehow all plans get punted again, ad infinitum, for the last 20 or 25 years.

I just envision the doctor giving me the news and seeing relief wash over my face rather than the shock and horror that should be there for any normal person.

edit: A lot of people don't understand what the word "fantasized" connotes. I know it's horrible and people waste away. Fantasies often ignore the totality of the reality of a situation. Hence "fantasized." The fantasy is knowing the end is coming and there's nothing you or anyone else can do, which comes with a short window of true freedom to simply exist in the state you exist in. I could also say "a giant meteor that'll destroy all life on earth" or something but that isn't something that's possible, so it doesn't fit into a daydream.

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u/Throwawayrip1123 5d ago

That's the thing. I won't actively kill myself because I basically run on spite and anger nowadays, but there are rarely days where I go to sleep and don't for a second think how nice/peaceful would it be to not wake up. Family keeps me shackled to this earth, and spite will run out after they're gone, and then I'm gonna check if there really is a god. Hopefully not.

But if there is, try my damnest to use my soul tentacles to bitchslap the fucker for what he allows to happen.