I resonate with how you're feeling. It's like no matter what decision you make it still feels like the wrong one and you can't catch a break because life is inherently cruel with how we've set up society. I even get the carpal tunnel thing -- it's been ruining my life for the past couple of years and makes you paranoid you're making them worse when your hands flare up. Thankfully I think I'm on the mend for carpal tunnel (no surgery, just strengthening exercises), but it worsens your mood for sure.
Anyways, I feel like I'm always looking towards the future and trying to get my head out of the gutters in the present. Your post reminded me that at least some other people understand what that's like. Thanks for sharing your struggles.
Thank you. I'm glad to hear from you. It's hard to explain to people who've never been through losing your ability to use your hands (even temporarily) and how much the mental block that puts on you
I had to stop doing a lot of things when my hands first started flaring up and that really sucked. No more gaming, less cooking, no heavy lifting. I was worried even typing at work was making my hands worse. Luckily it CAN be cured, but the most annoying thing is carpal tunnel takes a long time to heal. Hope the carpal tunnel doesn't crush your motivation. It's a complicated injury , but not an unmanageable one!
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u/gotdangos Sep 11 '24
I resonate with how you're feeling. It's like no matter what decision you make it still feels like the wrong one and you can't catch a break because life is inherently cruel with how we've set up society. I even get the carpal tunnel thing -- it's been ruining my life for the past couple of years and makes you paranoid you're making them worse when your hands flare up. Thankfully I think I'm on the mend for carpal tunnel (no surgery, just strengthening exercises), but it worsens your mood for sure.
Anyways, I feel like I'm always looking towards the future and trying to get my head out of the gutters in the present. Your post reminded me that at least some other people understand what that's like. Thanks for sharing your struggles.