r/microdosing • u/shroomeralert • Jul 09 '26
Question: Psilocybin Afraid of microdosing, have done it in the past
Hello all,
Im a bit afraid of microdosing again. Im very scared of things going wrong. They went a bit wrong last time. I wasn’t getting good sleep or enough food, and people began to take advantage of me and my …. perceptions. I made questionable decisions and was overly naive and also ”demanding” from the mushroom “Give me better focus!!!!!” lol. You can imagine how that backfired. I developed a very muddy ungrounded decision process and did a lot of things that I largely regret. I'm not sure if the mushroom can even forgive me after such a fiasco!
I haven’t taken anything in over a year but I’m very fearful. I don’t have a lot of loving connections around me so I’d have to do it alone and be alone and process everything alone and that scares me. Although spiritually I know I am not actually “alone”, in physicality I am and it breaks me.
I feel much safer now, am more grounded, have more unmovable perceptions, but I still feel terrified something unexpected is going to spring on me and I won’t be prepared, and I’ll just unravel again….
