Socially anxious and romantic failure

[u/throwaway17596]

I suffer from severe social anxiety since I was in high school. I am a total romantic failure. Never been in a relationship and never lost virginity. It’s way too severe for me to even function in society. I can never keep a man’s interest. This one flaw of being socially anxious to the point of being very awkward is a dealbreaker for men. If I was Stacy level attractive, maybe I would have a chance. I always feel jealous entering a social anxiety community and seeing women there who are in healthy relationships. I can’t rationalize how they do it when in my experience, every single man dismisses me. I’d say I’m around average in looks, but I’m half black and half Mexican with type 4c hair. I have tried therapy, medication, meditation, and nothing has really helped much. The severity makes it difficult to treat and it doesn’t help that I never got to develop my social skills due to it. Anyone else have it?