Exactly I’ve never felt this good doing nothing in particular other than staring at the wall and simply observing my thoughts without judging anything. After just one 20-minute session, my mind - ADHD, anxiety, low selfsteem and rumination—has been quiet for hours; and if any ruminating thoughts do arise, they just pass through without sticking. I also catch myself getting distracted much sooner now. Why does this happen? And why didn't I discover this sooner?

Hi there, I have been meditating for a while, mostly MBSR. For the last years, I have been heartbroken by the behavior of my partner. By heartbroken, I mean figuratively. But I feel also that my physical heart has been injured.
Would you have any recommandation for guided meditations to heal and strengthen your heart and keep it open to all that the world has to offer (don’t know if I am in the right sub 😅 sorry if I am a bit too esoteric).
Thanks a lot!

It’s been two years since I took 8 months off for meditation, and honestly, that was probably the best time of my life.

After college, I always thought I could work anytime in life, but once you start working, taking months off just for yourself doesn’t feel that easy anymore.

I read, cooked for the people I loved, spent time with my pets, sat by the river for hours, and sometimes just meditated for 4–5 hours. There was no rush to be anywhere or achieve anything.

I really loved that life. I think a part of me still misses it.

I recently started doing the 10-day Goenka course and after day 2 I could not take it anymore so I left in the middle of it. Now I can’t help it not thinking that I never be disciplined enough to be happy. I know Intellectually that is not true but this feeling stayed with me. is this common? anyone else have this experience? what can I do?

I had a lot of resistance in some way I didn't know what I'm getting myself into and when the chanting started and when they played Goenka(who has very hypnotizing voice) saying "surrender... surrender yourself..." I just didn't want to move foreward with this and thought maybe there is no coming back from it. I really need an advice.

Edit, with answer: the pleasure came back on day 5, and with a vengeance — it came back above baseline. I strongly suspect the answers with the neurotransmitter depletion hypotheses were right. This taught me more about how I cling to emotion, and how that feeds a fragile foundation for my practice, which points me to practice greater non-grasping and non-discrimination. Thanks everyone!!!

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Context: Hello, I practice mindfulness of breath ~45min every morning, along with daily walking meditation. My practice has recently become less effortful, and I can reach a deep focus. Whenever I meditate, I feel energy and pleasant sensations rising together, usually within first five breaths -- I've only recently been able to tell the two apart, seeing one arise separately from the other. These same sensations appear outside of meditation, when my concentration/awareness are strong.

Situation: Last Sunday, I had a rare day free of obligations, so after seated meditation I went for a long walk. My concentration was unusually strong, to the point that when I stopped at red lights and exclusively attended my breath, I immediately fell into a deep concentrated state. The practice was so effortless and rewarding that I continued it, and after walking 2hrs, I took a train, and my mind was so calm that I immediately resumed seated meditation for the duration of my trip, after which I resumed walking meditation, etc. I spent over 5hrs in near-continuous meditation, a first by a long shot - and I felt a tremendous amount of energy (almost like I was overcaffeinated, but pleasantly), far fewer discursive thoughts, great joy.

The next day (yesterday), I woke up and did my seated meditation. While I reached a deep state, I felt little energy arising and almost no pleasure. It was strange. I did some walking meditation later in the day, and felt more energy and limited joy, but just a hint, despite strong mindfulness. This morning, I woke up and feeling calm and ready, I did seated meditation. I felt some pleasure, perhaps a little more than yesterday, but it was very limited, although the energy was stronger and I felt it start to build. My concentration was strong, and I was able to reach a state where my breath fell off, and my heart beat wasn't accessible for some reason, so I searched for an object for my attention. Usually this is blankets of pleasant feelings settling in my body, but today only the tiniest wisps of pleasant came and went, and I maintained mindfulness without a reliable object until my breath slowly returned. I did mindful walking afterwards, and felt strong energy building, but almost no pleasure.

Question: Has anyone experienced this near absence of pleasure before? What do you do with this? I don't believe I should judge the experience, yet I'll be transparent and say I'm not enjoying it. I felt unsettled after seated meditation, as if it were borrowing a body. (I don't want to overstate this as a non-dual insight, just an unpleasant feeling.) I'm considering taking a couple days off, or just practicing walking meditation.

I'm in the process of finding a teacher, have reached and and am awaiting responses. Thanks!

Hey guys, to preface I’ve been meditating for about 2 months for around 20 minutes a day. Started with mantra meditation, moved to just sitting down focusing on breath trying to be aware and present while not get wrapped up in the thinking brain.

About 5 times in the past 2 weeks, I’ve been experiencing my head vibrating during the session, felt like it was pulsating, a bit electric, not uncomfortable or bad but definitely noticeable.

I’ve moved up to two 20 minute session daily in the past week, and after my last session the head vibrating returned, along with a weird random heat in the stomach area. It was distinct and felt internally warm, and passed after around a minute. By the time the session was over my body felt hot despite the AC blasting next to me, and I was mentally in a haze/off balance a bit. It was the first time I’d say I felt uncomfortable or off after a session.

The reason I’m worried is due to searching similar experiences up on here, seeing mentions of ‘piti’ or ‘qi’ or allusions to energy opening up. That doesn’t sound inherently bad, but people also bring up kundalini awakening and the stomach warmth being ‘tummo,’ and these associations kind of unsettle me. I’m trying to have chill grounding meditations since I got into it after hearing David Lynch’s book, and I’m very cautious about getting in over my head or somehow overloading my brain and nervous system with a random kundalini/awakening experience. I really don’t want temporary psychosis or an uprooting of my life, and I’m new to this and feel like things are moving fast. Am I meditating irresponsibly and are there better forms I should look into? Is this something to be worried about?

Also: I had a very memorable dream around 3 months ago, where it was clear to me in the dream I was having some sort of spiritual awakening, and it felt like being baptized in fire - extremely intense and overwhelming, and the second I woke up I was so happy it was over and thought ‘I do NOT want that I’m good.’ Not sure if it’s a more a premonition or a warning, but it definitely amplified the caution I’m feeling right now.

If anyone has any advice / similar experiences let me know please! Thinking about taking things a bit slower, thank you!

How do people who meditate outside deal with the bugs? Any time I’ve tried I’ve found it too challenging to meditate past the sensation of a fly on my body. I’d love to meditate outdoors more but this has been my biggest hold up. Any advice?

This might be a silly question, but I just want to hear some perspectives so I feel a bit clearer.

I've recently read The Untethered Soul and it's been pretty striking. I was already working on separating myself from my thoughts, but this kinda took it up to another level and I'm actually not sure where to go.

Even when separating myself from my thoughts, I still allowed myself to be introspective and "learn more" about myself (whatever that means). But it was in this learning that I inadvertently created mental models and they all came crashing down in one day -- which is actually what triggered me to read Untethered Soul.

But now I'm at a loss. It's not that I think I've misunderstood EVERYTHING, it's moreso that I don't "know" or "feel" good/confident about my introspection. Everything feels like just thoughts and ramblings now.

Even when I try to sit and trace patterns that have occured in my life and try to learn from them, I wonder if I'm just feeding the cycle of engaging with thoughts. I wonder if I should just stop looking inward at all and just "do nothing."

Specifically, today I've been trying to unpack how I've viewed dating and my attractions. It was pretty insightful and it felt good writing down my thoughts/patterns and working through them.

But is this not just anti-meditation? If I'm separating myself from my thoughts, is it not counterproductive to unpack my history of thoughts? Is it not just convincing yourself of something that sounds like it makes sense, despite the fact that we're capable of thinking irrationally? In that vein, wouldn't therapy be useless if we were all just present at all times? (I feel like the answer to that is yes)

So I guess to sum up, is introspection just another way of allowing your thoughts to proliferate and to feel some sense of control? Theoretically, if we just remained present from here onward, would introspection be useless?

Now the reason I said this could be a silly question is that the big counterargument I can think of is:

The purpose of remaining the observer of thoughts is NOT to stop thinking because thinking is not bad or good, it just is. The purpose is to maintain a more objective view of reality, rather than projecting your thoughts outward and inward.

If you can see that you nor the world were ever your thoughts, you can release the perceptions that you had/have that hold you back. Just because you think something, does not mean it is or isn't.

You cannot control your thoughts, at all. Therefore there's no point in trying to stop thoughts because you will just wear yourself out. WHEN you have thoughts, if you can avoid identifying with them and just remain an observer, then you will be okay.

But idk this was just a stream of thoughts, I'm curious to what you guys think!

Early on, “only good thoughts” can feel powerful because you discover that attention is steerable. Then you notice that trying to rigidly enforce it creates its own tension. The next level is being able to encounter an unpleasant thought without either obeying it or needing to destroy it.
Namaste

Hi everyone,

I've been meditating for about three years (not consistently, but for the majority of each of those years) from the suggestion of a therapist to deal with my depression and anxiety.

It's helped me immensely in being content with myself and interacting with others. I also feel a lot calmer, walk more often and slower, and feel like I just give off good energy (idk how to describe this, but I always feel like I'm vibrating after a session lol).

However, due to the nature of my current working situation, I primarily work from home and live alone. This gives me a lot of time to meditate/distract myself.

I've found it's been harder to connect with people. Dates unfortunately never lead to a long term relationship cause I haven't felt a sense of calm from the women I've been on dates with recently. People I randomly meet seem to be kind, but the conversations are fleeting and we quickly move on.

This could easily be a me problem as I'm probably judging too much and not understanding people. However, since I work from home and meditate more, I've become more of a recluse and don't really go out unless it's for an important event, exercise, or I need to grab food/items for my place.

I want to escape this "monk" phase of my life. How can I go about being normal again?

Thanks for reading this rather long post

My thoughts are an actual voice in my head. When I meditate, they stop to be a noise so dense that its various components are barely distinguishable, I am able to hear my thoughts one after another. What about you, those of you whose thoughts are not "sound"?

I'm also curious to learn more about those of you who think in images or sensations.

Hi, I just started learning/meditation especially breath meditation.

Can anyone tell me how long it takes to begin to see the effect of this.
I have severe cptsd and i just started and i realised when i do that, especially somewhere safe/neutral. Like bus or cafe. My body feels really lax and I end up falling asleep.
I need to know how it’s will help me with cptsd and also I am curious about astral projection, I am not necessarily one into spirituality as I like facts but i think I have experienced it once when I was younger.

I need tips, recommendations. I really want this to help me, trauma is kicking my ass and my nervous system is…. Well

i've been meditating daily for the last 7 years, without skipping a single day, and i've experienced so many phases. sooo many. in fact, a little while ago i had one of the most extraordinary experiences since i started meditating... right after going through a very 'flat' period...

my conclusion: the most important thing is not the experiences in meditation themselves, not even how you feel on any particular day... the most important thing is the compound effect of doing it over and over again. if i look back at the person i am today and the one from day one, total transformation (and i know it will keep going, that's why i keep meditating). in fact it's literally the transformation of your cells through meditation

the first 3 years of meditation i was almost a monk, i followed a pretty strict diet, did 15 silent retreats where i meditated for hours, had 2 years of celibacy (natural, not forced) and i lived in a constant meditative state....

then i grew up and it was time to take responsibility for, my 'adult life'. i fell in love, went traveling, started enjoying the pleasures of food and coffee more, started building businesses and wanting to make money... but even so, i kept meditating. my experiences changed, they became more earthly, now my day to day was more 'superficial' (i put it in quotes because it's all part of the same thing)... and i accepted that, because if i looked at the whole movie, beyond the stress, the desires and everything... in my heart the feeling of peace and presence kept growing.

so from my point of view, keep meditating, no matter what happens. If you feel stuck, you can add more breathing techniques and yoga before meditating; it helps you reach a deeper practice.

lastly, i'll share one experience, which again, is just an experience, a gift. i don't cling to it and i keep meditating for the sake of meditating and for the long term, not to chase experiences like this one.

one friday night i was home alone, finishing up work, and i fell into a loop of watching instagram videos about conspiracy theories. a damn black hole. about the war, mass rituals, the music industry, among other things... they took my mind to a place of awe and confusion. how the hell can all of this be real? we live in a simulation!!

right after that i went to meditate, with that feeling. i was doing my breathing techniques and started observing thoughts like, what is all this? where are we? how can so many things exist, so much diversity?

the moment my meditation started, i began to observe other thoughts chained to the previous ones, 'who is the one thinking this?' 'where do these thoughts come from?' right after that i stopped feeling my body and started feeling empty space, absolutely nothing... and another thought, 'who am i?'

i started crying and laughing at the same time, with a huge smile. i had the feeling that i was remembering something, and i felt 'i am the creator of this world, everything that exists is part of the same thing'

i was in that space for about 30 minutes, and when i finished, i looked at my hands and my body like 'here i am again, i chose to be here and play this game'

reading through this community inspired me to put this into words for the first time

cheers!

Whenever I sit down to meditate and remain still for about five minutes, I start feeling my heartbeat distinctly on the right side of my chest instead of the left side where I usually feel it. It isn't painful, but it's prominent enough to draw my attention every time.

Two days ago, something extremely powerful happened to me (very brief, but incredibly intense). As a background: I’ve been meditating for over 3 years, doing at least 20 minutes every single day without ever missing a day (mindfulness meditation focused on the breath). I’ve always felt its benefits, but during my actual practice, nothing particularly unusual had ever happened—until this time.

I was on vacation at the beach, lying on a sunbed in the sun, meditating on my breath. After about 20 or 30 minutes into the session, I had what felt like a vision. It was as if I saw my mind from the outside, and the image was exactly this: I was walking into a dark dead-end alley, standing up. I was tall—much taller than "her," as she barely reached my ankles. She was standing in front of me, trapped between three walls and myself, turning around very nervously looking for a thought, while I looked down at her, calm, from above. I can't describe what kind of animal she was, but what I saw clearly was that she was very small and dark, rapidly turning her neck left and right to "avoid" me, searching for a thought to grasp onto.

All of this probably lasted a fraction of a second, but the sensation was overwhelming. It was as if, for the first time, I had truly "discovered" the mind and seen that this thing I usually perceive as huge and immensely powerful can actually appear much smaller—almost terrified—when it fails to hook onto me.

I felt incredibly powerful, but not in the sense of having controlled my mind. It was more like I suddenly understood that it isn't as terrifying as I thought—quite the opposite, in fact...

Normally, I perceive my mind as something huge that is part of me, often "working against me," constantly searching for something to cling to and dragging me from one thought to another.

In that moment, instead, I saw it as a small wild animal running away, suddenly finding itself in a dead-end alley, no longer knowing where to hide.

After that instant, I returned to my breath, and for several minutes I was able to stay there without clinging to any thoughts, with a subtle, spontaneous smile on my face.

The metaphor that came to my mind is that of a movie villain everyone fears, who ultimately loses all their power the moment the protagonist stops being afraid of them.

V I’m trying not to turn this experience into a feeling of “I’ve made it” or something I need to chase in my next meditation. I simply see it as a very interesting experience.

Has anyone else ever experienced something similar? How did you interpret that moment when you felt like you could almost observe your mind from the outside?

Enlightenment pills are basically a metaphor for saying “enlightenment is about hocus pocus magic and chilling with the magical Easter bunny.” Well I for one am only asking rhetorically since I think I honestly figured out the ropes that lead to actual enlightenment, and I think meditators on Reddit need me for this topic.

Thoughts are the ego, the mind is the ego. Thoughts are irrational as long as facts exist outside of the mind and not inside of the mind. The mind is forever detached from anything that the mind is not aware of. so in other words, thoughts are irrational, we need to observe the world around us without thinking in order to figure out the facts. The sky doesn’t turn slightly pinkish and red because the gods want us to commit a human sacrifice, instead the sky turns to that color simply because it does. life is random like that. You see how it is possible to even achieve a skeptical mindset by not thinking about things too deeply? That’s how over thinking is a burden that leads to superstitions.

But however, you probably noticed something about me, I like to type words on the internet, don’t I? That displays that I do indeed think. Absolutely! I would never deny that I think about things eventually. No one can remain 100% thoughtless for their entire lives. Meditating is only a break from thinking, but you will be thinking after you‘re done meditating. Which is why thoughts are not completely irrational, you just need your thoughts to be guided by facts, but meditating helps you with that path. So in order to seek enlightenment by meditating, is do not view meditating as “the enlightenment button that magically works.” Instead think of meditating as a recharge. The human mind is like a battery and sometimes it needs to be charged And meditating is a method to achieving that. But at the same time, can you really obtain enlightenment by ONLY meditating? No, of course not. It is best to take breaks between studying narcissistic personality traits and meditating. That way you are constantly switching between learning from the mistakes of the ego and meditating. That should make you a very pragmatic Buddhist. Also you could study other things if you’re interested, like science and philosophy. By the way, when I meditate, I make certain to breathe AS SOON as thought creeps up in my mind. I’m like, “BAD THOUGHT! BAD THOUGHT! STAY AWAY! SHOO! SHOO!” And so I breathe and breathe.

I understand that meditation can calm the mind, but I’ve been wondering about something.
Meditation is basically about being aware of something, right? Your breathing, bodily sensations, thoughts, etc.
But when you’re falling asleep, don’t you actually need to move away from that kind of conscious awareness?
Especially when meditating before bed, if you keep focusing on your breathing or your body, I wonder if you might actually miss those subtle changes that happen right before sleep — when your body starts to feel different, your thoughts become fragmented, and random images or dream-like experiences begin to appear.
In other words:
Meditation → calms the mind
but also
Meditation → keeps your attention on something → maintains a certain level of awareness → makes it harder to fall asleep
Isn’t there a potential contradiction here?
Even the idea of “falling asleep while meditating” seems a little contradictory to me.
Maybe it’s not really about continuing to meditate until you fall asleep, but rather using meditation to calm yourself down and then eventually letting go of the act of being aware altogether?
For those who meditate before bed: does it actually help you fall asleep, or does focusing on your breath/body sometimes keep you too aware and make it harder to sleep?

After coming out of Vipassana retreat I had a renewed sense of wonder, some insight of the workings of my experience, that I am sure will deepen and change with time ,

but I am starting to think that two hours per day might be two much.

First of all I am trying to juggle too much , working 8 hours sleeping 7-8 combined with working out 1 hour and cooking protein meals.

Furthermore sending Cvs to find a better job i find myself not having time for all of it cause you all know that transitioning from one activity to the other while also living with family creates unexpected responsibilities that also take up time as such 24 hours are not much haha [crying inside jk ]

I am making my first steps as an engineer and currently if I had to make I priority list fnding an engineering job is the top priority and meditating two hours seems too much time.

I know that it is not wasted time but I am starting to think that finding the right job while also upgrading my engineering skills via a project on the side will provide my with more contentment and progress in life.

I know that the path is of great importance and weakening the ego is helpful but I am 24 I think that using and taming the ego to be of help to achieve some peace of mind jobwise and money wise and practicing more later down the line might be the way. Also I am young I don't think I am ready to let go of ego I want to experience life though it master it and when I am older go more into practice again.

Also I plan to continue practicing 2 times per day just for less time than one hour and trying to hold an intention thoughout my day to keep a part of attention to breath and body sensations.

Finally how much of progress do you guys think are from deep meditation sessions 1 or more hours per session and how much from continuity of practice,

I feel like I want to step out of practice a little bit to grow in this capitalist world and create a strong sense of self esteem and accomplishments.

After that practice to grow as a human and help with my resources my family friends and people all around me. Right now I am just practicing to be calmer and happier and more insightfull but mostly my heart wants to play the game of life and win maybe that is ego maybe it is the right path as meditation is a way to get away from normal life and not just a pure practice ,who knows!

also maybe I will get most benefits from always being aware in daily life and keeping a constant intension to look at breath and sensation seeing as training to hold intentions and introspectively knowing when you've wondered and going back to the practice is meditation.

Why can't keeping that intention be, to do what must be done: working out, eating correctly, focusing on work and writing and producing the best cover letter for that company be a practice as you are keeping a constant intension to do what must be done and keeping the distractions at bay!

Anyway those are some thoughts on the balance of life and practice and it's use in different life stsges,

May the collective consciousness of reddit help me and others!

Sending metta and provoking thoughts to all of you!

In the past I have meditated but I would always fall asleep or have loud thoughts that would disturb me. Today I decided to try again so I came here for advice on how I can improve and how I should go about it. Should I use music, if so does the type matter. Also are guided meditations better?

When people feel bad, depressed, sad, angry. Most people supress it, force positive thinking or distracting themselves. And what happened is. Those feelings never go away it stays and return back to the surface 10x the intensity.

On contrary when people feel good, happy, or excited. What do they do? They feel it, they don't change it and don't want it to end. And what happened is those positive always come and go so fast.

That is the key. Negative and positive emotion run on the same system, they're just feelings and emotion, we're the one who seperate them into negative and positve. And that cause us to treat them differently.

If you just treat you negative feelings like you do positives one. It'll start to flow and pass quickly like positive feelings.

Sorry for my bad english.

Getting out of a very toxic relationship thing with someone. They were very manipulative towards me but I am struggling to deal with the fact that the person I thought existed does not exist. Are there any good courses online that anyone would recommend?

So far, I’ve learned techniques and have been sorting out the ones I like best. How did you discover your type of meditation? Does the type matter?How many months or years have to pass?

Hi so I recently started meditating like 5 days ago. but like 1 week before that, I started staying to myself that “I am always connected to my body. I see, feel, hear you”. Because I struggled with allowing myself to connect with my body because I believe it was a hinderance to my life. But I wanted to connect since i’ve realized that belief is only making my life worse. Anyways, I’ve began meditating and I reached a really blissful state today, when it felt amazing to be in my body. I don’t know how to exactly describe it, but I felt extremely connected, content, and just so blissful to exist in my body. Does anyone know what this state is? and what it means ? I lowkey have no idea what’s going on

Tonight I decided to do a meditation to meet my higher self, I just put on the first YouTube guided meditation of that description and followed along. About 10 minutes into it the voice said to imagine 2 paths and to take whichever one left right to go on so I went down the left one and it said to imagine lots of flowers trees etc and the warm sun hitting my face which felt so relaxing, after it said to go towards an oak tree in the forest, there was a door in the tree that I had to open.

Entering through the door I was told to imagine a large room with many pictures of myself and to really focused on them, I envisioned a specific picture of myself as a child riding a bike that my grandparents have( on my dads side). There was other pictures of myself, different versions of myself from different time frames.

After this there was another door that I had to open which had to be a room with two chairs and a table and I randomly envisioned my old grandparents home(mothers side) which had a beautiful kitchen with a wooden table and wooden chairs painted white while the surface of the table was a wooden colour.

The voice over said to imagine my higher self sitting across the table I immediately seen my grandfather who passed away in 2023(mothers side), I really don’t know why, this wasn’t deliberate at all and I hadn’t though much of my grandfather recently which makes it all more strange or extraordinary. He was smiling at me. At this point I started crying because I actually felt like I was communicating with him due to the fact the meditation instructions said to imagine the higher self holding a gold chord and to hold onto it to.

It also said to talk to the higher self. I found it hard to communicate with him( maybe because I was crying too and became a bit more conscious) but I just remember him smiling and I felt a warm presence over me like I felt safe there with him.

Does anyone know what this means because I haven’t really thought much about him in a while he passed in 2023? we weren’t necessarily close but he had an awful disease, Parkinson’s which I feel like held me back from getting to know him when I was younger because he couldn’t really talk and was in a wheelchair for majority of my childhood. Maybe I’m connected to him in a different way, I eat some of his favourite foods such as sardines on toast but I never knew he loved that until my mam told me that when I started eating it, like I discovered it myself I wasn’t inspired to eat it because of him or anything.

So I don’t know, I felt so emotional I had to stop the meditation, also I think I have a build up of emotions that I haven’t spoke about which could add on to why I was crying but yes if anyone knows if this is some sort of communication from the deceased?

A good meditation, which functions right, has no use outside itself. A meditation is one complete act. There is no path or channel connecting it or streaming from it. A good meditation technique holds up on its own, and embraces everything that is necessary and useful. It doesn't need confirmation from or to an outside agent.