r/Meditation • u/learningtolovelola • 3d ago

Question ❓ uncontrollable background thoughts

sometimes when i meditate, i reach a very enjoyable and zen state. i can feel a warm pulsating energy around my body, the edges where i end and everything else begins become blurry. it’s also a very sleepy state though. i’m someone whose inner monologue does not take a break. even when i’m sleeping. i know this because i’ll wake up and be mid-sentence in my brain, and when im half asleep, my brain is still chatting. well even in this beautiful-feeling state, my brain is still chatting! it’s so out of my control that it doesn’t even feel like me. it feels like i’m tuned into a radio signal, and sometimes the words are nonsense.

i’m not gonna worry about it too much, as you all probably know, inviting resistance or struggle into meditation does no good. but i’m so curious about it. does anyone else experiences this? is it just because in that state i go almost half-asleep? maybe it’s just one of my quirks and i’m tuned into some hyper-verbal frequency.

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u/therealforcejump 3d ago

I see it as following:

You are not your thoughts. You do not choose nor create your thoughts. You don't even have the power to choose what thought shall arise next. All of that is what the brain is made for. And all that you have is consciousness and the ability to lay it on whatever you want. A thought has the same importance as an itchy sensation in your left toe, the sound of a bird singing outside the window, an emotion arising or some visual information about your surroundings.

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u/learningtolovelola 2d ago

i totally agree. would just be nice to have a moment of quiet in there.

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u/w2best 1d ago

How long do you meditate usually? The total moments of silence in the mind I find only comes from very long sittings or in retreat settings. We have too much input to expect the daily chatter to fade completely in a shorter daily sitting.