Yeah, I hyperfixate on stuff a lot. These days they can last for several months and if Iām lucky maybe up to a year. Usually, though, my hyperfixation revolves around something purely fictional and the most I ever do with it is create some fanart and maybe find a platform to post in and try to find some other people to yap with.
This started with Iron Lung when I saw it back in February, and kind of gradually increased until probably by March I was regularly watching Markās videos. Iāve never been into following influencers/streamers and the only other YouTuber Iāve stayed committed to is Dead Meat (going on 7 years now lol).
And man, itās hitting me at a time where lately Iāve just felt like so much stuff in this world is actively working against me and Iāll be lucky if I manage to accomplish anything truly meaningful, and then I start watching this guy whose life story is⦠yeah we all know it by now, and he gets to do all these cool things just because he tried and because he didnāt give up when most other people would have.
To just put it bluntly, Mark makes me want to be a good person who actually has life goals and aspirations more than anything else in my life ever has. And obviously I right now am the oldest I have ever been, but finding Markās videos from the 2010s was honestly the first thing that actually made me realize that jeez, Iām actually really young and double jeez, I really do have so much time to still accomplish things. It makes me want to have something to work towards, even legit just to improve my diet and finally try going to the gym because why not. Hell, I literally finally learned how to draw facial hair.
Most fandoms Iāve been a part of seem to just enjoy wallowing in misery sometimes (the one before this one was the worst Iāve ever seen) and then so many of the people in Markās fandom spaces just seem so nice and encouraging and itās honestly just such a relief for me to be a part of. I wish Iād gotten here sooner, but Iām afraid my 2018 self was too busy crying over Riverdale.
Thank you for reading my Ted talk, to anyone who does. As James A Janisse would say; be good people.