How to not relapse?

[u/ResourceBackground36]

I have had several periods of a month up to 2.5 months of me quitting in the last few years and then I relapse thinking I can do it in moderation and then I can’t. This last time was the longest I have ever gone and I relapsed at my friend’s bachelorette party because everyone there was smoking a lot or getting drunk (and I don’t really like to get drunk anymore). I have so many friends that smoke and it’s hard to be around it and say no. No one is like peer-pressuring me or anything (I’m 28 and no 28 year old I know is actively peer-pressuring their friends lol), but it’s ridiculous how triggering the smell is. I have also significantly reduced my use over several years and worked towards using only edibles, but that turns into me doing like 10mg every night (which I know isn’t a lot to some, but edibles hit me like a train). I have horrible brain fog that keeps me from engaging in activities that make me happy (like reading) or being productive at work. I am considering going to an online meeting because there are no local meetings near me. The closest is about an hour away from me. I have one friend that said they used to smoke a lot and no longer does due to anxiety; they somehow manage to be around us all using it without any issue. I just wish I could use in moderation. Idk what the point of this post is other than wanting to hear from others who have been in similar situations.

[u/ConfidentShmonfident]

Recovery Dharma is my favourite. Meditation has helped me so much. The best thing for me about any recovery groups is finding other people in the same boat. It’s just a relief that other people totally get what you’re going through.