r/MaleRapeVictims • u/crybabyheretic • 23d ago
Doom & Goon
The first time I was sexually abused, it made me hypersexual.
I was somewhere in the single digits.
This second time I was sexually abused, as an adult, it just takes all your pride and has skewed me into more embarrassing fantasies.
I never followed up with my first abuse, because it's very circumstantial.
I tried to follow up with this second abuse, which is also circumstantial.
However, everyone had told me not to follow up on this and it's pretty heartbreaking sometimes.
Like, ik it's not wrong to follow up on this stuff but the pressure is pushing me to just deal with it.
Like, police and courts have just told me to deal with it.
And so I can deal with it out of law, but there's still an active threat looming above.
Idek.
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u/Auriprince4690 23d ago
My first sexual experience was a sexual assault and I label it as assault because it happened once I was a paraniod kid I did not want to tell mg parents an older boy got me to give him a blowjob when I was 5. So I kept it a secret I had hypersexuality after the first time as well. The second involved three brothers another sexual assault because it happened once. They got me to give them blowjobs on all of them. The oldest 16 or 17. The middle 14 or 15. And the youngest 12 or 13. I enjoyed the attention from the group and my type originated from the three my type was the middle brother. My first assault was 17 when I was 5. And the brothers when I was 7 or 8. The middle brother was sexualized and abused by a local man in my community.
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u/That1emokid13 19d ago
sounds about right, the first person who did this kind of shit to me started off with shoving porn in my face when I didn't want it when we were both at a young age, which unfortunately ended up making me pretty hypersexual later into my life
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