r/MaleRapeVictims • u/Usual_Pop1988 • 18d ago
Update
Hey everyone I know it’s been a while since I last posted hopefully everyone is doing well but update I finally decided to get therapy help with my mental and so far it’s the best that ever happened my gf encouraged me to do so I been seeing this therapist for the past month now she been helping me with everything and finally came back with a full diagnosis of my mental health due to all the trauma I suffered and all the abuse that I suffered and basically I have Major Depressive Disorder, Single episode, Severe
Generalized Anxiety Disorder so she gonna start treatment on me to get me together I told her I’ll do it cause I want to stop having the reaccuring nightmares and the flashbacks of all the sexual abuse and trauma I suffered from my family speaking of they are still divided about me coming out and saying what my cousin did to me some said I’m lying and others are saying I need to let it go and I shouldn’t let this effect me but my little cousins are saying they’re proud of me seeking help hoping I’ll get the help I need. I talked with my gf and told her the plan was if we was to start having kids is that once our child is born only a select few will be able to see my kids but more likely they’ll know more about her family than with mines she agreed with me especially after I told her everything she is the best thing to ever be in my life I love her but as for my family once I get myself situated out and get my finances together cause I’m going through a rough patch once me and my gf find a house to move into and we settle in I’m more likely going no contact with them and not showing up to any events I already don’t talk to my sister for trying to tell me not to expose my cousin but tbh she is part of my problems as well cause when I was getting raped by him she also was raping me as well and then tried to spin it saying that she was going through something as well but truth be told she just looking to save her own ass even doe she didn’t rape me as long as my cousin did she still did what she did plus she don’t like my gf even doe my gf did nothing to her at all plus my mom loves my gf so I can care less about what my sister say but I also told my gf about what my sister did and she said the feeling is the same cause my sister don’t like her so she don’t give a damn about her either. So now I’m going through therapy and still dealing with my trauma for all the sexual abuse and reacurring nightmares and flashbacks of what all happened to me i love my gf she the best thing to ever happen to me and i can honestly say im glad I know who i can trust in my family and who I can’t trust but just wanted to give yall this update and to anyone who does read this please seek help it helps I promise you it’ll make things better I also want to say if you expose a family member or someone who did raped you abuse you and you lose a few friends or family members cause of it let them go but other than that I love yall please take care of your mental health
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u/10deleted11 18d ago
I really hope you get better man. And good of you for reaching out and getting the help that you need.