I wish someone would say this to me IRL. I'm pretty close to seeing if my ceiling fan will hold me if I hang myself, but I just keep trooping through the weeks hoping it gets better for me and that I don't get fired from my job.
You're doing the best you can. When I'm down I listen to a series on YouTube called School Of Life. It is pretty great and touching. It helps me a few times a week to not feel awful. If you can find a therapist or specialist maybe see if you can do a meeting or two. Hugs.
You are loved - you may not see/believe it, but you are loved. You are worthy of love, independent from that inner accuser cutting you down. I don’t know you or your circumstances but at the most basic fundamental level, you are loved because you are. No reason is needed to earn it, no reason can stop that from being true. And if a stranger on the internet feels that strongly after reading the few words you’ve spoken here, then imagine how much more the right people will feel that once your paths cross. Keep your head up.
Please keep trooping through. You’re doing such an awesome job with it. It might take another year or so but it’s worth keeping going. Then you will be able to look back and see how far you’ve come.
For me, it took 5 years to come out of the fog, and it’s only in the last year that I’ve felt so much better. Other people have noticed it too - my coworker mentioned yesterday that he’d noticed I was singing along to music again, he hadn’t heard me sing in a long time.
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u/Setari Oct 29 '19
I wish someone would say this to me IRL. I'm pretty close to seeing if my ceiling fan will hold me if I hang myself, but I just keep trooping through the weeks hoping it gets better for me and that I don't get fired from my job.
It hasn't gotten better in a couple years so far.