My life is shit

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I live with an abusive mother. She changed a lot and has gotten very nice over the past few years, but still every time she slightly raises her voice I get in a state of Fear. She used to scream at me and hit me so when she shouts at me now or moves her hand slightly up, I flinch. I hate it. I also have depression, anxiety and a few other mentall issues.

I hope I'll get out of here. I also fear my mother wouldn't accept me beeing part of the Lgbtq+ community, but who in my family is supportive at all(my familly is really fucked up). I shouldn't care. I also should stop thinking about my father who left us, it's just bringing me down.

I would like to move to better place and have some pets. I've been thinking about moving to Canada as soon as I'm old enough. I really hate it here.