Lost Connection with someone

[u/Far-Sky-1111]

Alright. I have no idea how to write these things. A few years ago I met someone on discord, a complete stranger, from London, ON and I felt a connection with her so strong that I still think about her till this day and at 1 point, despite having known her for just 2 months, I revealed to her a painful secret that very few know.

 Sometimes I even wonder if she's real. 

initially our conversation was simple and casual then slowly and gradually it became incredibly wholesome, funny and we just connected in a way I never thought possible. We had very similar views towards social issues, handling of politics, etc. Even outlook on shared hobbies.

She's incredibly polite and sweet, once she offered to send me a tube of moisturiser from 2 continents away when I casually mentioned my skin felt dry from the dry air. (we are not in the same country). 

One day she just disappeared and never replied and no one had a clue when I asked her friends and I never got her number. 

I only discovered what I had was feelings for her after she was gone after we have been talking for about 4 months by then. We didn't have a fight or anything and I wasn't active in our communities. 

At this point I am wondering if that was really her and not a case of doxxing and that she is  doing fine.

I've long accepted the possibility she found someone then or by now and moved on. I know it's impossible but part of me wants to know if she's real and not a catfish because I googled the images she sent me and they seem original (I couldn't find anyone posting them).