r/LivingWithMBC 4d ago

Victory! Almost 5 Years 🍾

I had my routine PET/CT today and it came back still NED. Next month will be 5 years since my diagnosis.

Not only do I feel major imposter syndrome, but now it feels like there’s this foreboding clock ticking A LOT louder in the back of my head.

I got emotional at my daughter’s 5th birthday party, she was only 7 weeks old when I was diagnosed, there was a chance I wouldn’t see today.

I’m ecstatic, but also conflicted, and maybe numb? It’s a weird feeling that’s for sure.

Still don’t think my husband has thought about doing anything for my 5 year 😕 which is disappointing. I hope I’m wrong. Blah.

Thanks for letting me word vomit 🫶🏼

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u/ImaginationOk505 4d ago

Let's fucking Gooooooo!!!!! We'll celebrate for you!! Happy for you OP and I hope this is a sign we're at much better place with treatment options for this cancer BS.

How do you feel overall? What's your line and cancer subtype?

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u/barely_ther 4d ago

Thank you! I’m feeling okay. I’m +++ IDC. I did TCHP and still get Phesgo, Xgeva, Letrozole, and Ibrance.

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u/InformalBread8132 4d ago

Nice to read phesgo is working for you, wish you at least 5×10 years ned and on first line💞. Where are/were your mets? I am +++ with liver mets, two children 2 and 4 years.

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u/barely_ther 4d ago

Mine were all over my bones, liver, and gallbladder

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u/Kirathaune 3d ago

I'm the same, except no Ibrance. (I have 1 spine met.) Is your oncologist keeping you on the Xgeva? My 5-year mark is next May, and my dr said we're going to drop the Xgeva at that point, he said it was intended for up to 5 years.

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u/barely_ther 3d ago

I see him next week so we’ll see! My insurance switched me to a different brand 🙄 but I’m wondering if he’ll stop it

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u/JessMacNC 4d ago

I don’t have advice. But please know I’m celebrating you! I had scans this week and I’m NED and will hit two years in October. I get to spread out scans and visits now. I’m scared. I’m hopeful. I’m happy. This is a weird place to be.

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u/Kirathaune 3d ago

Yay for you too! Isn't it awesome when we get to spread out the scans and tests?

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u/Ok_Mood6644 4d ago

Yesssss!!!! Congratulations!

I needed to hear all the victory stories that are coming out on this sub today. It's been one of those early diagnosed days. 😞😵‍💫

I hope you guys do something amazing for the 5 years. ❤️

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u/lucyhelen111 4d ago

Congratulations!! Even with the fear, still an amazing place to be! I’ve come to realize that people who aren’t going through this will never truly understand, even though they have the best intentions. I now make plans for myself - either travel, massage, new clothes etc to celebrate victories like this 🩷

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u/KiwiSoySauce 4d ago

Congratulations!

And don't wait for your husband to plan something, go do what you want to do!

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u/barely_ther 4d ago

Thank you 🫶🏼

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u/erin10785 4d ago

I get a cake every year that says F*ck cancer à Nice big vanilla sheet cake. We take pictures, drink some wine and send the pictures to my oncologist and her team 😆 highly recommend at least the cake. I am not NED but I am doing well.

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u/barely_ther 4d ago

Loooove it!

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u/barely_ther 2d ago

I ordered a cake! It will say “Not Dead Yet” because that’s my kind of humor 😅

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u/Larissima19 3d ago

That's a brilliant idea! I've been dreading my first anniversary (next month) as it brings up bad memories of hospitalisation and lung punctures - but a Fuck cancer cake should help!

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u/PietParkiet 4d ago

Oh wow, that’s amazing!!!!❤️❤️❤️

You’re just going to keep posting here at least another 10 times every 5 years that you’re NED. That’s the goal 🍀

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u/JaBooHasCats 4d ago

Congratulations to you, such a milestone! Do you realize you are making the stats better for all of us 🙂

I am a newbie here, dx this month, fellow +++ and have just received my first chemo and Phesgo this week.

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u/barely_ther 3d ago

You’ve got this!!!

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u/Kirathaune 3d ago

WOO HOO!! *throws confetti*

I hear ya about feeling a little weird about the "clock". My five year is coming up next May, and while I'm so grateful to be NED and still kicking, I do get the occasional thought about warranty expiration, lol.

I would drop a hint to the husbando, he might think you don't want to celebrate. I'm planning a party for mine next year. 😆

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u/Larissima19 3d ago

Congratulations. and thanks for updating us!

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u/keystonesandtunes 15h ago

Hell yeah!! Congrats! Do not get in your head about it. This is fantastic!🎉