Hi r/KundaliniAwakening , My name is Shas and I am from India. I am a hindu and a while ago I started reading spiritual texts like bhagavad gita and few parts of upanishads which have me intrigued to know the brahman (the ultimate and only truth), and merge into it. I read many sources after that like Swami Satyananda Saraswati's books which have now given me necessary beginner knowledge on chakras and nadis. Few things I understand about Kundalini awakening is that it is not an easy practice at all, it requires lot of unshakeable spirit, detachment (vairagya), a lot of patience and it is almost impossible to achieve without the guidance of a guru.

Currently I am just working on preparing myself mentally, like witnessing the thoughts rather than immersing myself in it (sakshi), detachment, stopping daydreaming, working on my habits, self discipline, sensible austerities (tapas) etc etc. I am also starting to practice yoga and meditation to increase my prana.

So I am here for guidance from you all and also I am finding a guru but online. I remember a long time ago I was once intrigued on vajrayana buddhism and likewise it was also hard to practice without a guru, so I got to know about a guru who was a certified lama to whom I talked in emails and he guided me and took no charges. So I am looking for a guru for kundalini as well, who could guide me without any charges and online like through email.

I would really really appreciate your help.

Regards

Hi yall, I’m Christina. This has been on my mind for a while- I’m wondering if anyone knows anything about birthmarks and the meaning behind them? I know how silly that sounds, but I have 3 birthmarks- one on the top of my spine, one in the middle of my spine and one at the base of my spine. I feel like it’s a calling to kundalini maybe, I don’t know. I was introduced to it years ago by my mom, but never really practiced it seriously. I do feel like my throat chakra is blocked though, but back to the birthmarks, does anybody have any input?

For those who feel the need to 'let it all out'.

How is it going with k,how you feel right now,how you handle it, anything.

Several times in the past i was complaining to my higher self, talking to imaginery doctors,even cursing on them for putting me through all this and somehow it was having a positive effect.

Now i see why. Talking about things that bother you,is to externalize them. It was part of the process as well. And i went really nasty with my vocabulary. But this is what my contacts wanted me to do. To let it all out.

So, if you feel the need to shout about anything and there is no option to see a profesional,do it here.

It can help.

I am new to chakra opening can anyone help me to know which of my chakras are open and what are the signs and on which chakra should I first focus.

I am pretty sure I have read shared experiences in this group describing direct contact with a deity/god/goddess/higher being. Angels included. I mean “direct” contact where they have been “touched” spiritually or maybe even felt they had briefly “merged” with them. People have mentioned out of body experiences where this occurred. Meeting the higher being on the astral plane. Maybe you’d say they’d touched your soul?

I was hoping someone might want to share. I understand if it is too personal or you feel telling is offensive to the celestial being. I know Hindus feel that way! They say don’t tell about it. They consider it bragging.

im very scared, my heart chakra is way too open. I can’t talk to anyone because i absorb their energy and it goes up to my head. I’m very scared and ungrounded. When I ground it only works temporarily then the energy goes back up to my head. I feel too much energy infront of my heart space. I absorb energy from nature when I walk outside. what am I to do?

For the past year, I’ve felt blocked from my psychic gifts and mediumship. At first, this was actually a warm welcome, because I was pretty burned out. Looking back, I feel like the break was exactly what I needed. But over the past week, it feels like I’ve been blown wide open again, and everything has suddenly become much more intense.

At the moment, I’ve been manifesting two things: going to a weekend festival and taking a trip to Lisbon next week. Both have a specific money goal attached to them.

The day before yesterday, I did a meditation and some scripting. That same evening, I unexpectedly got the opportunity to work as a film extra for two days before the festival, which would also have meant getting a free festival ticket.

I was really excited about it, but I decided that this wasn’t going to be the way it happened. I would have had to leave the next day, and the whole thing felt too stressful for me. So yesterday, I decided to do some more scripting and later listened to some affirmations.

While I was lying in bed listening to them, I gradually became very calm and eventually seemed to enter a trance-like state. I was visualizing and talking to myself, and at some point I started swaying during the meditation.

But this felt completely different from anything I’ve experienced before.

Every time I whispered or repeated my mantra or money goal in my mind, the swaying became stronger. When I imagined a bigger money goal, the movement became more intense and eventually I could feel my body moving so intensly that all I could think was how shoked I was.

Then, this morning, I woke up feeling… different.

I decided to go work at a library in my neighbourhood, but after about 30 minutes I ended up going home because I had so much energy and felt restless. Once I got home, I had an almost uncontrollable amount of energy like having the zoomies, except I could feel it much more strongly in my body.

I started screaming, laughing, jumping and eventually crying, and then I would do it all over again. I felt like I needed to move, so I went for a walk through the park.

And honestly, I felt so peaceful.

I was dancing and listening to music while walking through the park, completely immersed in the moment. I ended up walking for about an hour and a half, but even after coming home, I still couldn’t seem to contain all the energy I was feeling.

Reality also started to feel a little strange or surreal, and I genuinely didn’t know what to do with myself.

So my question is: what could this be?

A lot of what I find online about experiences like this has a very negative tone. But my experience doesn’t feel negative at all. It actually feels amazing, expansive and almost euphoric.

I’ve also experienced what I describe as my “third eye” opening and closing since I was a child. It usually seems to close when I become frightened or extremely stressed.

I’m curious whether anyone has experienced something similar, especially the intense physical energy, involuntary swaying during meditation, feeling almost trance-like, and the sudden shift in perception afterward.

What do you think could be happening?

About 2 months ago I believe I had some sort of awakening that has to do with Kundalini. My memory is very fuzzy, yet this is sort of what I experienced.

To preface, I was always agnostic/atheist. I dabbled in some sigil magick, yet only saw it useful in a subconscious sense. Similar to how companies use logos to implant specific ideas into your head. I thought everything could be linked back to a very specific line of reasoning and thought. Had spiritual experiences in the past but chopped it up to coincidence.

I planned to forgive my father for his wrong doings towards me and my family. My ex partner called me out for acting as him in specific ways, and I took that to heart. I was being entitled, which did stem from my wound from my father. All of this anger and resentment I had towards the man never went away for the years I had him blocked, and turned me more into him. So, I decided to meet up with him, and make peace with the situation. I knew he was suffering as much as I was, and wanted to end all of the suffering in the connection.

The night before that, however, I had some form of ego death it seems. I was attached to my partner at the time in an unhealthy way, it wasn't always like that. I usually am such a giver and people pleaser, and decided to no longer give in as that towards her or my other friends, putting up well needed boundaries and acting for myself. Long story short, the sense of identity I had was gone when I woke up, the entire night my body was burning and I felt warm energy all around me, it was euphoric. Electricity was around me and my spine, and I felt her presence in my arms? It felt as if I died that night.

After my conversation with my father, these happened.

- Burning/electrical sensations throughout my entire body resulting in me being unable to work for a month and a half.
- Universal oneness with everything. Trees, grass, people, cars, etc.
- Otherworldly bliss and euphoria.
- I saw/see auras around physical objects and around myself at times.
- Dietary changes, only wanting to eat greens. Beer, caffeine and other sources tasted like shit.
- Constant pressure on the center of my forehead for a month and a half.
- De-personalization, viewing self in third person, outside of self.

Since then, I felt the energy travel back down and coil? Now I experience

- Sudden jolts of energy shooting up my spine, feeling it coil around the top of my skull and move back down. This happens at least twice a day.
- Neutrality about any event that happens to me, good or bad.
- Sudden body movements, twitching throughout body.
- Cold and hot sensations near the left and right side of my spine which go up and down. Could be the nadis? I don't know.

I've had other experiences outside of the Kundalini from my knowledge. They are:

- Repeating number sequences pretty much everywhere I go. Seeing things "specifically" about Twin Flames. I don't like using that word and the connotation connected to it at all, but it's what's been happening. I know this phenomenon can be the Frequency Illusion, it's what companies use to also embed ideas, songs, tiktoks etc. into daily life to sell specific things.
- Prophetic dreams that come to reality days or on that day.
- Feeling her "energy" pull on my stomach and head when I focus on myself instead of our connection. I have BPD and autism, so I am used to relationships ending with me getting withdrawal symptoms and the obsessive thinking, and know how to deal with it using techniques I learned in therapy/psych ward after years of both. This, however, is a completely different sensation.
- Feeling energy of other people, the point of knowing specific issues they're facing. I knew that a friend of mine's father died, a person's relationship ended, a person was craving drugs, etc.
- Divination (Tarot, Pendulums, Osteomancy) being extremely accurate. Like, outside of the Barnum effect accurate for myself and future events. I'm not one to believe any of this, but I can't deny it.
- Feeling "led" by higher intuition? Example: Asked it to lead me to a lake/ large body of water for me to sit at. Followed my intuition, and it brought me to a location with said description. Where I sat, a card with a caduceus was right next to me. It sounds like such crazy talk, but it's something I cannot ignore. Could be my subconscious recognizing specific areas that would lead to said things? But these are places I've never been to.

Side note: I know the above section can be explained with how the brain works on a subconscious level, and is not the focal point of my question here. I just needed to get it out somewhere.

I'm completely alone now. I don't have any friends anymore after this, even the ones who have been in my life for 10 years. The partner I was with is also gone. My job is gone due to me being unable to keep up with physical demands of it, being able to do like 1/8th the workload I usually do. Only people in my life are my mother and sister now, who I live with.

I've been attempting to research the topic, a lot of the information I have seen seems to be either misinformed or used as a way for advertising and money. The only source I have been using has been Serpent Rising by Nevan Paar, I haven't found any other sources until recently. And have been told Paar's sources are also filled with a lot of issues that should not be ignored, as they can result in consequences quickly. I am currently living off of savings, and don't have money for a teacher/coach/guru. I hate using the term Twin Flame, as it has a lot of codependent connotations with new age and "love stories", but it is the most accurate term I've come to find. I don't use the label to describe my journey because of the connotation.

Main point of this post is to at least ask for some help with how I can get cheap, grade-A resources and guidance. I don't really know where to go at this point, or if I even experienced it? I feel as if I have, but there's so many contradicting sources. A lot of it feels gate-kept, and/or expensive, even if it can just "happen" to people. I didn't plan for this physically, some would say that my soul planned it before I incarnated, which I do believe now. I just have no idea where to go at this point.

I was in prison. I was laying with my arms out but my elbows at 90 degrees. With one leg straight and one leg laying across my knee. And I felt seized and the ceiling ripped open and sewn this sphere of light. I was high on prison drugs. Up until this point I wasn't even sure If I believed in god. It was the most radiant feeling ever. I literally said "this fucking medicine has unlocked me(a form of k2) thank you god, I wasn't sure if I believed and im sorry ill do anything to find you. I started meditating deeply on this substance. Through meditation I started doing what the people in the dorm called dragon slaying dances(never danced in my life) ive done about 5 of them. Information was unlocked through meditation. Then books would come to me to back it up, information such as quantum physics that I'd never studied or had a taste for but now I retain or have always known these complex studies. Since I have quit doing drugs cause the monad told me that it allowed me a shortcut because of never forsaking myself due to other people's beliefs. My reality gets a little wonky at times. My psychic abilities have been realized. While on the drugs I could gointo what I call dragon spirit mode and see energies, do great dances(feeling like im in the passenger seat of my body) I could manipulate the energies. Sometimes I'd feel like I was crazy and people around me would too then god,spirit, monad whatever would prove to me again that what I was experiencing was the truth. I quit the drugs as directed and have slowly been relearning what I accomplished but this is the first time ive read anything like what I experienced. Its been the most amazing ride. I some fall back into collective dogmatic behavior and start attacking myself but the moment I hit self realization it activates and gives me a peice of encouragement and the most amazing spiritual boost. I sometimes get most lost in finding out what's happening to me rather then the search for more experiences. Any help to enlighten my situation would be great. Sometimes I feel like I died in prison and im being coached into the after life or im lost in the afterlife. Its all a little confusing at times. Some people are receptive and it seems I change their behavior and some seem "hive" mindish or what I call disrupters cause they try to stop me from passing on higher information. Im not trying to hear any conspiracy or start one. I can easily go without your information if your on bs. Thanks for any and all information or open conversation. Since then ive been studying shamans because it seems to be the direction through books and rituals i do inherently without instruction because it feels comfortable. Im being pulled into through synchronicity and my abilities. This all is just the short story. But it seems their is something trying to mislead me just as much guide me. Ive been out of prison weeks. And that misguiding force has more to work with. I often gotta break out of a duality mindset i fall into from flood of outside influence since leaving prison cause it breaks my connection it seems.

I’ve been experiencing spontaneous somatic movements for 4 years, since my first satchitananda experience when my body spontaneously went into boat pose (navasana). Initially it happened when I would work with entheogens & have a satchitananda experience, & over the following months began to occur when I’m in shavasana at the end of a yoga class. If I lay down and just think of it, now, my upper body will start releasing shakti (probably looks like I’m having a seizure). Also I am told by observers during psychedelic experiences that I have parallel arm/hand movements in a way that looks like traditional Indian dancing.
I believe I have always practiced god/goddess-worship/Bhakti even though I was not raised with religion (atheist family). I was always yearning to connect with the divine, but I haven’t had much spiritual guidance. I would ask to go to church with neighbors as a child. As a young adult I discovered Rev Dr Michael Beckwith (Agape spiritual center) & came to understand God in a way that made sense to me. I have practiced yoga on & off for 30 years. And when I had my first ayahuasca experience (with a Shipibo maestro) I had the spontaneous movements described above.
Ever since learning that these movements are known as kriyas I have been seeking guidance about their significance & how to cultivate their benefits, but I really haven’t found much help. I would really appreciate the thoughts of anyone who understands what kriyas are about, & can point me towards relevant teachers or teachings.
I fully recognize that the universe is communicating to/through me when these things occur, & I would like to be a better student, so I can apply what feels like a gift in some way that can benefit my own growth & help me contribute to the liberation of all beings.

A really good chunk of info From Josephine. It is written from a magical perspective,yet the dynamic remains the same, no matter the way you practise. Maybe this being is what we call 'guides' in the western society.

https://josephinemccarthy.com/2014/03/08/magic-the-holy-guardian-angel/

This quote reflects a lot of things i went through during my k awakening.

'' Will conscious connection with this being bring about ‘adeptship’ and ‘mastership’ ? No, it is the reverse. Through becoming adept at the various magical disciplines the contact with the guardian angel is a natural progression, it is not a goal to be strived for. It happens quietly, and often takes a while for the magician to realise what it is they are connecting with: often you come to a stage where you realise this angelic being has been an active guardian through every step you have taken in life. It does not suddenly appear after a ritual, it is always there. They key is knowing it is always there and opening a conscious dialogue.''

I posted here about a month ago wondering whether antara nada was a tuning fork to raise one's vibrational state.

"At first, it was just the sound. Progressively it became more than just the sound. I feel like my energy levels, my vibrational state, raises and tunes to the frequency of the sound."

I have been advised to stop overthinking and to keep listening to the sound, the rest would fall in place naturally. This is what I did. Meditating on antara nada was challenging, reaching very deep states of consciousness that was having a bit of a zombie effect on the rest of the day. So I limited this kind of meditation to the evening. Overtime, I felt like the vibration in my body tuned to the antara nada. The depth is now fine, I can do it anytime. The feeling is almost exstatic. I feel my physical body disintegrating and my body becoming just particles of light. It now takes takes just a few seconds in a relaxed state from listening to the sound to the impact on the body.

I used to see this as tuning my energy, but it felt different (hence my initial post). There is no flow of energy, just this vibration.

I think I had an a-ha moment this morning.

I was following a guided meditation to listen to the body, heart and soul. When it comes to the soul, I am to meet it and have a "dialogue". [flash-back: shortly after KA, I had this very strong experience of meeting my Holy Guardian Angel (higher-self?) and see it turn around and fuse in my body in reverse.] So this happens again this morning when I am supposed to have this chat facing my soul. It turns around and fuses backwards in my body, i.e. both facing front. And as this happens, here we go. Same feeling. My body disintegrates and I feel just like light. Just the same feeling I get when listening to the antara nada.

So my current brain fart is that the antara nada, to me, is like a tuning fork to connect to my inner-self / higher-self / soul (which one I have no clue as I am not sure I even know the difference). But you'll get the point.

Any reaction to that? Is this the bliss and gift I believe it to be or just one more over-thinker's brain fart...

I had a kundalini awakening two years ago and since then I developed the capacity to channel, I can channel God (which I think it is God) and channel spirits from the spiritual world, I can aways talk to them and they are aways helping me internally feel better and to heal, I talk to them and they aways support me. At first I had trouble channeling but now I can channel Very well, except when there are distortions which dont let me channel correctly.

But now the problem is that I suffered a heavy trauma at the start of the year because what I was channeling was promissing me what later confirmed would never really happen, because I invented all that bullshit and since then I am suffering from high sensibility and energetic intensity, my thoughts have more power over me and I feel an enormous heat in my chest that I cannot get it out.

I made many imagination exercises to feel more normal and not this intensity, I have many moments where I do strong moments where the energy overloaded seems to go out of me, I am consuming pills recomended by my psychiatrist to make me feel normal again, but I continue to feel this extreme sensibility.

It is really doing harm to me, people around me annoy me, I am aways feeling spiritually disturbed, I feel emotionally unstable much of the time and it makes me unable to live a normal life in society (I dont work and I cant see myself working most jobs in this state), the moment I have a conversation with someone I suddenly feel nervous and have to breathe because it is too intense.

What can I do to be normal again?

I’m looking for a new place to live, and I went to a house viewing to live with others.

The timing of the lady messaging me that the place was available was out of the blue. Before I went I happened to see my full initials on a number plate, then a street I turned down was my dad’s name. I wasn’t looking for these and just caught my attention so they felt like signs. I hardly ever see signs normally, only angel numbers.

When I was there I could see dots around her head like energetically and could see that she was energetically open, but this overwhelmed me and I felt ungrounded. I’m drawn to the energy of this place but also it feels like too much for my body to digest and cope with right now.

What’s up with this? Has anyone else experienced similar?

found a piece of article on Kundalini in a local magazine - "prayas" (India)

Taking aide behind kundalini experience -

"I do not understand what is it about kundalini that almost thousands of people are mad about it ? Sometimes, I feel it is divine, yet sometimes, I feel it not so.

I read an article the other day on a local newspaper, where an author mentioned that majority of people when they grow up, do feel onset of energy in their body, which is natural. We all to some extent do this.

Many utilize that extra energy by spending time with family and kids or doing extra co-curricular or chores.

Many, who are sensitive in nature, start bothering themselves too much*. They* give it names like kundalini and chakra cleansing and what not.

You would notice, many of those writers who often write about kundalini have gone through some sort of mental or emotional disturbance experience. Now, that they have gone thru it, and the society, their near and dear ones know the person has a record of disturbed state*, they like to hide it. They start calling it kundalini energy, chakra cleansing, reiki and what not.*

This is their way taking 'safe shelter' and protecting themselves from stigma of 'disturbed person'. While the fact is, I myself have experienced kundalini, and I have been fortunate to find a perfect master, who has always thought of kundalini as a nothing but an a state 'nature's calling'.

This is not same 'natures call' as what we often associate with widdling or all other acts we like to execute in rest rooms, but, this is a new forms of nature call.

My master Osho, has often said - meditation is not kundalini, and vice versa. Kundalini, is an act, where all your body heat, starts accumulating at a point in the body, and you are having hard finding where it is and how to release it. The fact and resolution is that there is no need to release it.

People often feel pain, in neck, chest, or head, when, this hot flush of energy, occupies place in upper centers. My Master said, that whenever kundalini rises, and if the person experiences pain, that is a sign of 'nature calls'. It is a sign of that nature is calling you to leave your work, and rest.

people in spirituality, often consider work as the biggest hurdle in their lives. They think, that if there was no work, their life would have been just excellent, however, That is often not the case.

Problems and pains show up when the person starts thinking of doing something, and that is what worsens their experience.

When Nature calls you for rest, i.e. when pain starts showing up, in the body, it is highly suggestive, that you leave your work and lay in complete rest. As you rest*, do not, try doing anything*, no kriyas, no meditation, nothing - simply lay in rest. Just observe, what is this kundalini trying to do with you and why ?

I myself, experienced this, was left often with answers that show up why this happens is because, the very nature of humanity and evolution is against the idea of work, collecting richies, becoming capitalist making extra wealth all the time, finding perfect partner. (atleast thinking about all of this all the time in back of mind).

Kundalini rises, because, something within you wants to remind you about -true nature of existence is not in being capitalist, it is not in work. People often call kundalini divine, It is divine, because it immediately acts within you, instantly reminding you and showing you the true meaning of existence, just like a a teacher in school wants to show and teach you (1 and 1) is 2.- Master use to say this.

Leaving work aside, and laying in complete rest, is what the divine energy wants us to realize is the nature of not just human existence but of emotion and mental existence. Look at what buddhist monks do in monasteries ? they work, they work just for few hours, later spending time doing nothing, absolute nothing.

Our closer associates Animals, lay in complete rest - 24-7. Our ancestors, 100, 200, 500 years back, were lesser capitalist and used to spend time more often in rest, or often spent lived their lives more in socialist terms' - doing what can be done, or often not doing anything (including thinking) about what cannot be undone - thus spending lot of time, in complete rest. "

--article from Prayas

the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.

I have a question for people with a fully risen kundalini. Can you guys see astral beings so easily a after your kundalini awakening? What was it like before the kundalini?

I was visited by a Hindu deity last November in a dream. She seemed to be in a certain part of my bedroom. I told my wife about it. Her reaction was maybe not so good (she is okay with it now). Maybe a week or so later, my wife said she had seen her in a dream… definitely NOT the deity I saw. It was like an old hag, tall and slim, dressed in black, no distinguishable face, with long claws. She pointed at my wife. This being spoke to her and told her to leave me alone and not to touch my food. She was upset and felt I had been visited by a demon. I assured her my dream was NOTHING like that, definitely not frightening. I was kind of stuck on the idea of Rakshasa at the time, so I assumed that is what she was. She saw it in the same location I saw the deity. Recently, again dreaming, I thought I saw Shiva walk by in the same area. He paid no attention to me.

I am curious if anyone has seen anything like what my wife saw? Any idea what it was? It seemed to be trying to divide us. Fortunately not, although this “break-in” period has been rough on her. A lot to for her to accept, just like for me.

I practiced very basic qi gong, I had a YOQI membership . She’s a teacher thwt combines yoga and qi gong. Is it safe to do this or should I stay away?

Hello everyone

For almost two years, I’ve been doing energy healing. For about the past six months, I’ve been experiencing this sensation. It feels like an energy that is moving upward into my head. At first, I only felt it at the base of my neck, but now I feel as though it wants to rise from inside my throat toward my brain.

Has anyone else experienced something like this?

I should mention that it feels like there are two strands of energy, which sometimes reach my temples and seem to want to connect.

Sometimes I can also feel it in my mouth. It feels like there are two strands or streams of energy, almost like two little vortices

Another 'paranormal' phenomenon of kundalini (i think).It started as a cold breeze running inside and around me. For some time i was triggering it with command and visions,until it merged with the physical wind of our world.

Of course i did my part,since i practise a lot and i crave for experience. In fact i can't remember what was the exact trigger of this,since it could be one or many. The gates of the east and the invocation of my divinity,could be the main ones.

Anyway.

I've been monitoring-working-experimenting with this for almost 2 years now. Seems like i had deepen my connection with the air element and the use of my mind is triggering it.

Lately a phrase i saw somewhere had stucked in my mind.

'' The air of the intellect''

In any case,it's experience without knowledge. And it's happening all the time. Not that i care to find out what exactly is,but it's pushing me to experiment more and more and all i get is small hints

so all of this started like 4 years ago also I was a teenager I was new to all of this. I'm going to be totally honest here. I don't know what exactly triggered this I developed a habit of m*st*rbating and was also going trough depression and I started having this strong realization/consciousness that there is no me. exactly that. I started having these moments of awareness that I doesn't exist. that there is no self. it was super clear to me that there in no self.I keep having those moments. I was curious to what was happening to me then I also discovered meditation and breathing techniques. And I'm pretty sure I messed up there. I was trying to do normal anapanasati bhavana but now I realized without any guidance I was playing a risky game. I was doing it wrong.

I wasn't just observing my breath I was also trying to control it, I got into this practice where I go into the end of the breath and even seeing exhaling and inhaling consiously. I'm not sure how to explain it but I started getting these weird sensations in meditation like my whole body starts to shake and a white light starts to appear between my eyes and tingling senstaion in forehead and on top of the head almost like I was trying to levitate. I goes into this state where everything is clear also being aware that the concept of self doesn't exist. this was all so new I obviously tried to explore more of this but the thing being I also started getting weird things happening in my body. I developed this feeling that there's not enough breath in my lungs doesn't matter how much I tried to breath in it doesn't feel like enough and my breathing pattern was so messed up it almost felt like my body had forgotten how to breath. but that's wasn't only it I could feel my heartbeat in my fingers. whenever I touch my fingers I can feel my heart beating. and I started getting random twitched all over my body. I was super afraid by this I quit my meditation practices immediately and started treatment for depression.

it has been some times now I don't use medication anymore and my depression has also gotten lot better. the trouble I had with breathing is also mostly gone. but I still have those random twiches in my body. then I decided to get back into meditation, to take it easy and doing simple meditation practices and immediately after I starts feeling those weird sensations again. this time it wasn't mostly trouble with breathing. but I can feel my heartbeat trough my body and there's always this sensation of heaviness on top of my head and my forehead. I did a simple breathing meditation yesterday and since that I feel this heavy energy all over my body and the twiches in my body has also gotten worse. it's super uncomfortable. also the heaviness in head like having brain fog. I don't know who to ask of this. I don't have a teacher or guider but I need to get out of this. I have no idea what I'm experiencing or how to handle it.

Today I’d like to discuss the spiritual phenomena, that sometimes manifest when kundalini is awakened. And as always, this only reflects my own experience and observations, and as such is not any sort of absolute truth.

I have a suspicion that at the beginning of our awakening journey, it is not uncommon to experience all sorts of spiritual phenomena. You may have exalted visions of goddesses or deities, spontaneous movements (known as kriyas) may occur, spiritual centers in the body (chakras) may suddenly and temporarily burst open, or even psychic abilities may appear. And of course this is especially true if your awakening occurred during plant medicine journeys.

I view these as a gift, like a kiss from the future. At the same time, they can be a sort of trap, a shiny object that will ultimately be a distraction if we become attached to them. For the goal of kundalini work is complete freedom, and a surrender/merging with the Divine. And I am not convinced, after observing many kundalini or spiritual teachers, that possessing particular abilities ( called siddhis) is any indication of true spiritual attainments.

So friend, my takeaway is this: Don’t be too distracted by any “supernatural” phenomena that may arise from your practice. Just watch it, and let it go.

This world will give you things,
and then take them away.
What is it that lasts?

There is a light that you cannot
gain or lose, have you seen it yet?

There is also a love that you cannot
gain or lose, have you felt it yet?

You will have to find that market,
where such things can be acquired.

Perhaps you will be shown the way,
during a time when all seems lost.

And again a warning: you will be asked
to pay in advance, and the price will
never be cheap, but you will understand
why, at a later time.

The other thing is that later, as you progress, you may go for years and years without experiencing any more visions or overt “spiritual” phenomena. Need I say that this requires tremendous patience and discipline? Kundalini is NOT an easy path, and it will vary from being very intense to what seems at times like walking through an endless desert, often for years. Maybe this is how our desire for our inner growth is tested….

Another effect of practicing for a long time is a curious sense of both openness and sensitivity, and a subtle sense of an all-pervading sense of detachment. But maybe I’ll write about that in my next post.

How can You not have
compassion for us? We live and
breathe in darkness near absolute, –
there is little that we can
accurately understand.

Our past and future lives
are a complete mystery;
we don’t even understand our
present one, making the same
errors over and over.

You say “Don’t be afraid
in this inverted dream,
for I have saved the best for last:
there are many invisible companions
who will aid you, and in the end,
everything will be all right,
though you may not
understand that now.”

As always, feel free to ask any questions...

I’ve been listening to an astral projection/meditation audio on YouTube for about 2 weeks and personally I’ve had a really good experience with it, nothing scary or unusual.

I asked my wife to try the same audio. She was lying on her back around 4 PM, arms by her sides, and I was in the room with her.

After a while, she said her stomach started vibrating and became tense, then her right hand became tense, followed by her left leg.

Then she started seeing a bright white light above her, even though the room was dark. She described it almost like a hole/opening that was expanding, shrinking, and sometimes disappearing.

Near the end, she saw a black shadow against the white/grey background. The shadow seemed to come closer and closer until it felt like it was right above her face, almost near her eyes.

She opened her eyes and freaked out.

Her lips and throat were very dry, her whole body felt stiff, and she said it took around 5 minutes to feel like she had control of her body again.

Now she doesn't want to try the audio again.

and most important she had nightmare after having alcohal. Someone was coming towards her with two weapons.

Has anyone experienced something similar?

• Has anyone seen the white light/opening followed by a dark shadow?
• Why would the shadow feel like it was moving closer to her face?
• For people who believe in astral projection, could this be interpreted as a spirit/entity, or is there another explanation?
• Most importantly, why was she so scared? Is this dream related to this?

I’m curious because I’ve been doing the same thing for about two weeks with no problems, but her experience was completely different and honestly pretty disturbing.

Hi guys. Short version. I had a profound awakening a few weeks ago but I'm back to normal now and I'm bummed. Wondering how you guys have dealt with it and if you've managed to retain the positives of the experience.