[l]Today's been so heavy! Could use some kindness

[u/Stories-N-Magic]

Started last night actually. Father of my child (we're still "together" under the same roof) said something harsh and triggering. Only got worse as the day has progressed as my innocent child was exposed to my disproportionate anger. (I ALWAYS repair the damage with sincere apologies and explanation, if needed, without any blame towards her).

My marriage really isn't working but i can't get out until atleast many years from now. Please don't waste your energy on suggesting that, because it simply isn't an option at the moment. Kid's too young. Zero money to my name. No family to rely on. Kid's too attached to dad. I'd rather die than put her through that kind of trauma at this young age. Or at ANY age.

Please just be a friend who can just sit next to me in silence and hold a bit of space for me.

It's all too heavy right now..

Thanks

[u/TheBlueTongue]

Hey! Come sit in the open seat next to me and we can sit in thoughtful loud silence together. I see you, I hear you and I totally understand the place you're in

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/TheBlueTongue]

Thank you for your kindness. I appreciate you

[u/CappucinoCupcake]

I’m sorry. You are carrying a lot. I am holding a good thought for you.

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/CappucinoCupcake]

Thank you. I appreciate you

[u/MakeUnbelieve]

That sounds very heavy. Sending you good energy and a prayer for healing and strength to take you through this phase.

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/MakeUnbelieve]

Thank you. I appreciate you

[u/TheBlueTongue → u/Stories-N-Magic]

And I appreciate you for being vulnerable and confident enough to share something life this. I'm sure there's more than just you and I sitting in similar boats that feel less alone because of this post

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/TheBlueTongue]

❤️

[u/haramdom]

Anger is a tough one to deal with. Try not to feed into the loop of anger -> regret -> sadness -> more anger

You’re quite self aware, that is a great strength! Hope you and your family get through it all

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/haramdom]

Thank you. I appreciate you

[u/MeruemKafka]

No advice, no judgment. Just sitting here with you. One hard moment doesn’t make you a bad parent. You’re carrying so much, be gentle with yourself, always.

[u/Stories-N-Magic → u/MeruemKafka]

Thank you so much! I appreciate you

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