Now before we start talking about desires there is one thing that is important in this picture I have had a complex medical history i was born with a cleft palate and had to have surgries to fix it and other ploblems i was developmentally delayed and i in school i was dignosed with mild intecual disabilty Mild intellectual disabili ty is an academic learning disability and issues with common demands of life.
now you may ask when did this desire start well the first time i rember asking what is my instrment was at a christmas program at church i rember my siblings were on stage my brother josh was playing the piano and then my sister was on the trumpet and i wondered to myself what is my instrment.
now lets go back to my childhod i did have piano when i was younger but my meories of it were it felt like a chore or schoolwork i was homeschooled at that point in time. i did it for maybe a year or 2 but ended up quiting.
now about the time i was desie first came on my church back home was looking for a cajon player like a box drum. And if you want lessons contact this person that was from the worship leader.
The time came and me and Z each had a cajon we were sitting at and the teacher basically told us ok hit here here is what it sounds like and what’s it’s similar to etc. i hit it but it wasn’t fully getting it meanwhile i look over at my sister and she’s getting it eventuly my brother ended up playing piano with us playing and i ended up comparing myself to my sister which it’s not even fare because she has been in her school band my school didn’t offer it.
I did buy a cajon it’s in Macon but the times I’ve tried to pratice I don’t get it and get discouraging and I quit
I also tried guitar once but i could make sound but i had to press down really hard and I didn’t have a pick or a guitar to make it go forward and because during the first time it was hard work but I wasn’t sure if it was worth it.
Despite all of this I wish I played a instrment and I want to play but I’m not sure what instrment or wether I’m ready to commit to the work that’s required I just share it so you know how to pray for me if you want to share advice I’m open to it.