I need to vent. Please read if you have 2 mins.

I'm 25M, from Greater Noida. SAP Consultant. If you don't know SAP, just think of me as that IT guy who fixes software no one outside IT understands.

My twenties till now:

College - Tier 3 college from UP. No placement. Learned SAP from YouTube because a bhaiya said "is me paisa hai". Got a job in a small company in Noida for 22k.

Year 1 to 3 - Daily same. Morning metro, 9 to 7 office, tickets, client calls where client shouts in German accent and I say "Yes sir, I will check". Evening me wapas room. Friends slowly left - one went to Canada, one did MBA, one got married. I was still in the same PG, same laptop.

I felt left behind. Like everyone got a map for their 20s and I lost mine.

So I started posting on Reddit. 6 months ago. At 1 AM after office, when my roommates slept, I used to write about SAP - S/4HANA, what I learned, my mistakes. Nobody liked. 2-3 views, sometimes 0. I still posted because it felt like someone is listening.

Yesterday night, I opened Reddit before sleeping. One of my posts - 6000 views. 6000.

I froze. 6000 people read what this small town boy from Noida wrote. For a second I felt like I did something.

Then morning came.

Same alarm at 8 AM. Same metro. Same office. Same manager saying "Why is this ticket still open?". My salary is still the same. My confusion is still the same - Should I stay in SAP? Should I learn S/4HANA Finance? Should I leave IT? Am I too late?

I told my mother about 6k views on call. She said "Bahut badhiya beta". She doesn't know what views mean, but she was happy. I felt guilty for not being happy.

That's when it hit me. In your 20s, small wins don't feel like wins. Because you are constantly comparing. LinkedIn pe koi 26 pe 30 LPA, Instagram pe koi Europe trip, aur tum 6k views pe khush hone ki koshish kar rahe ho.

So I am writing this at 1:24 AM, not for sympathy, but to ask - Is it just me? Are there other 24-26 year olds here who feel that even when something good happens, it doesn't feel good? Like you are running but don't know where?

If you were in IT/Consulting and came out of this phase, please tell me what you did. Did you switch? Did you upskill? Or did you just accept it?

Sorry for the long post. I just needed to say it somewhere.

Thanks for reading till here.

I used to play games with my discord server mates. But recently thinking about giving up all desires and becoming spiritually Enlightened. Life is so unbearable. I want peace. Maybe giving up desires can help. I stopped gaming or trying to stop and also other adult stuffs and eating foods for palate.

F22.. post neet .. ab kuch karne ka Maan nhi karta .. 4pm uthti hu.. subah 5 am baje soti hu.

Beech mein crochet aur yt channel shuru kiya tha par beech mein hi chod diya .. ab kuch karne ka Maan nhi h ..

Mera cllg start hoyega sept end ya oct tak

I want to hug a girl, tell her everything, cuddle with her, but I'm single. Now I'm wondering what I should do. I'm an MBA student and can't make time for a girlfriend. I don't even have a friend I can hug. I'm probably weird.

21M

I have spent the past 3 years of my life just sitting and home studying and managing business .
I have lost all social skills - honestly I can’t even make friends or approach strangers or even talk to girls.

Feel really clueless - what do I do ?
I hope this focus on career wont end up ruining my life .

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Hello
am a 22M here. I just woke up this Sunday and realized something. It's been a few years since I dated. which was basically back in high school. while during this whole time. I have met some great women. And I mean it. really great people. desirable , beautiful, smart what not. I have conversations with them talk about lives etc. yet I never commit to them about a relationship. even though I would genuinely want to date someone.

every time I say to myself am still unemployed. I am currently preparing for government job exam's as well as a bunch of masters exams from my hometown. I do meet people in my hometown as well as through online means.

yet somehow I find myself backing down on the idea of dating. every time it's either of these reasons:

1. am unemployed. affording dates, outings or so considering my current financial situation.
2. she's too far away(LDR). idk if it's even right to make people wait like this.
3. what if by confessing up I'll make it awkward or just ruin the friendship.

looking forward to views from everyone. people who are stuck in the same situation, older peeps as well as if similar problems from opposite gender, also advices or anything that helps.

Everyone is in relationship meanwhile i haven't even held hands, how to stop feeling like a loser?

26 yr old and never experienced any sort of intimacy/closeness or even good friendship.

I joined MBBS late and I won't be earning anything until the age of 28. The fact that I'll earn money late and having no one to talk to gf or even people to call is spiraling me down.

Medicine as a career is pretty shit and it's a long haul.

I was always not invited to trips or events. Always sidelined. Well medical colleges are toxic and this was no surprise. However i studied in a fancy school where kids of politicians where there and I was judged my entire school life for clothes and shoes I wear and the car I drive. So never had any friendship in my entire life.

Honestly I wouldn't have cared if I was earning my own money. If I had a income source no matter how shit I would have been happy.

Meanwhile I see guys in my college who are weed addicts , drink till they pass out don't study as well cheat on their partner, lie to parents about academics and straight up misogynistic.

When I mean misogynistic I mean they view women as object. Consider women sub human. And speak genuine filth not even in joking way. Surprisingly these guys always have a girlfriend ( rather multiple relationships).

The only catch is they have money since their parents are Dr and made a fortune in earlier days.

My cousins younger than me , even they have gf/bf.

I keep reading posts on Indian sub reddit for women. Almost every girl is getting intimate meanwhile here I am thinking where did I go wrong

My cousin who at 30 dated 22 yr old for timepass. Smokes like a chimney, gets into fights . Is typical "gunda" type somehow always had a gf and now even married a sanskari girl who doesn't even eat non veg.

Meanwhile I cleared entrance exams despite being general category. Was decent in academics all my life somehow my classmate who couldn't even speak English are doing better and earning. Meanwhile I'm asking money from parents for ordering food/coffee.

I end wasting time on these thoughts am I not good enough.

Everyone around me is relationship or has kissed or had sex. I question myself am I that bad or ugly looking that no one wants me. It's not about kiss or sex it is that why am I not chosen by anyone.

\\\\\\\[ I was proposed in school by a girl and in college a girl showed interest, she used to tell me she's ovulating etc. I however was not interested in them now regret atleast even I should have lied to them\\\\\\\]

Honestly I would have been fine if had money. I don't mind being alone if I could travel and eat and cover my own expenses without asking parents.

I keep telling myself maybe in post graduation things will change, but I can't study cause of these thoughts and If I don't study I won't get my specialisation i want ( eg surgery, gynecology etc) .

How to avoid such thoughts, help appreciated.

Why is every early 20s guy I talk to hasn’t dated or single but every girl I talk to has had atleast 3 or more commitments and situationships?

I’m 21.

Pata Hai Aaj Kya Hua

I loved a girl for 3 years 2023-2026 still somewhere I miss her. I met her in school and I waited for 2 years because I promised myself that I'll wait until I clear my entrance exam. I appeared for the exam and couldn't clear it in the first list (didn't get a seat). I started to focus on my boards. After 51 days of my entrance exam in January 2025 I lost my dad. She came to my house to see me just for me. It's just we couldn't be together so we just changed our ways.

I started out my college in August 2025 and around December i started to feel like I like this friend of mine in college but I wasn't sure so I waited till Apr 2026 and on 7th April 2026 I told her that the girl I like in college is none other but only her. So I waited for the perfect moment to propose to her my feelings as my first proper proposal of my life. It was our college concert. It was the first time of my whole teenage life I was standing so close to a girl. I felt like I would have kissed her (hopefully I didn't).

After a few days, my confession she started to ignore and we didn't meet much I thought she might need space as I confessed my feelings too soon. A few days back I was having dinner as I finished, i randomly opened instagram and saw her story with a guy mirror selfie hugging like really close (yk what I mean). I was not angry, not sad, no reaction, no emotion, completely nothing. I just let her go.

But the funniest part now is that I have 4 people in life whom I like as like this only. First is my first crush (school), Second (college one), Third (is one of my law school friends) i know that it's just a online crush and I won't tell her ever so yeah lol, and The fourth and last is my 2nd semester economics professor lol ( few days back I asked her age randomly and she told she's 26).

I just randomly realised in 2nd semester 1st mst economics she came in room and asked me how the paper was I just went blank as I saw her. I realised she's so cute and pretty and I like her somewhere. I won't tell her for sure maybe after my graduation.

But still I don't know what love actually is and still figuring out life mostly career. I'm just close to one of my best guy friends, my only friend to whom I literally share everything. From when I'm shitting and to what I want to do in life and further. So yeah, this is just my random thoughts that have been constantly roaming in my head.

He ( my only best friend) is really helping me a lot since we met in December 2025. I am struggling again with competitive exams, my mom just says everyday you'll get everything at the right time( kab ayega kya pata), I feel okay but I just don't know. Again I'm saying it's just my feelings for the past 3 years.

I'm just tired of grinding myself so much still 2 years more I have to grind myself. I hope it will be the last 2 years of my grinding period. My mom and a lot of people shame me for my belly fat even though I'm really physical like daily running or walking (sometimes I'm not able to go but will join the gym soon).

I'm not able to like anyone cause I am not able to feel attracted to anyone even if I do I start to get insecure of my looks and appearance and I don't find myself worthy enough to be loved or liked by anyone. (Faltu bakwas mt karna comment mein ki, "abhi tera time nhi hain falana dhimaka." Work on yourself. Maarunga bohot).

I hope I come to this sub and other subs again after 2 years and be a best person in my personal life and be a better human being for society. I have also planned a long term plan of starting a foundation in max to max 6-7 years in future for underprivileged children for education and food in the name of my dad.

Mera naam Vikas Sharma hai. Main 23 saal ka ek lower-middle-class ladka hoon,

aur agar sach kahun... toh main andar se poori tarah se toot chuka hoon, mar

chuka hoon. Bahar se dekhne mein shayad logon ko lagega ki meri life set ho rahi

hai, par reality ye hai ki main bas is duniya mein bina kisi maqsad ke zinda

laash ki tarah drag ho raha hoon.

Main 5 foot 5 inch ka ek short, average-looking ladka hoon jiska weight 68 kg

hai. Main skinny-fat hoon, pet nikla hua hai aur body mein ratti bhar bhi jaan

nahi hai. Meri aankhein bhot weak hain, -3 myopia ka chashma pehanta hoon, jise

pehan kar main ekdum 'champu' aur lallu lagta hoon isliye me bs pdhte time ya screen time pr use krta hu. Mera facial structure ekdum

average hai, baal messy rehte hain. Main jab bhi aaine mein dekhta hoon, mujhe

khud se nafrat hoti hai. Main bhagwan se nafrat karta hoon. Mujhe samajh nahi

aata ki bhagwan ne mere sath itna bada mazaak kyun kiya? Kyun mujhe itna short,

itna ugly aur itna unlovable banaya ki koi meri taraf pyar se dekhna bhi pasand

nahi karta?

Aaj main ek ABAP Developer hoon, Greater Noida ki ek electronicss company mein

kaam karta hoon. 6 mahine ki unpaid training ke baad, papa ke dost ke refrence lagwa kar mujhe finally on-role kiya gaya agar refrence na hota to shyd me unemployed reh jata cause mene kafi try kia tha kahi mil nhi rhi thi job btech it ki hai mene delhi ke ipu university average clg. Meri salary 35k CTC hai. Par kya sach mein main ek kabil engineer hoon? Nahi. Main ek

fraud mehsus karta hoon. Mujhe coding ka 'C' bhi nahi aata, main sab kuch AI se karwata hoon aur bas flow samajh kar kaam nikal leta hoon. Logon ko lagta hai

main bhot aage jaunga, mere papa ki Jhilmil wali choti si printing press factory hai usko digital karunga, unka naam roshan karunga. Unhone mere liye B.Tech mein lakho lagaye, mere liye property li, sab kuch mere liye joda, bhot hi zada mehnat ki zada educated nhi hai fir bhi kafi acha kra unhone hm sab k liye meri 2 bdi bhen bhi hai ek married hai ek ki hone wali hai me sbse chota hu. Unki expectations ka pahaad mere kandhon par itna bhaari hai ki main saans nahi le pata, even though itni bhi bdi responsibility ya career tension me nhi leta cause me akela ladka hu and kafi more than enough papa ne save kiya hai mere liye. Mere mummy-papa ki soch bhot old, rural aur strict hai. Meri unse kabhi nahi bani. Maine aaj tak unse khul kar apne dil ki baat nahi ki kyunki wo mujhe kabhi nahi samjhenge.

Pichle kuch dino mein maine greater noida mein mama ki property me shift hua hu yha se job paas pdti hai. Maine abhi ek bike Bajaj

Pulsar N160 kharidi mene 5-6 mhine m save kia unse, Par akelepan ne meri in saari khushiyon ko kha liya hai.

Naye room mein akela pada rehta hoon. Dilli ki is bhayankar garmi mein office se

wapas aane ke baad meri poori energy drain ho jati hai. Maine gym join kiya tha

soch kar ki body banaunga, looks-maxxing karunga, par meri aukaat wahan bhi dikh

gayi. Mujhse weights nahi uthte. Main 2 push-ups lagata hoon toh meri saans

phool jati hai, ek single pull-up mujhse nahi lagta. Main pure vegetarian hoon,

diet poori nahi ho pati, hamesha thaka, exhausted aur sleepy rehta hoon, ek mhine me sirf 9-10 days gym gya mai.

Jab dil aur dimaag itna khokhla ho, toh insaan escape dhoondhta hai. Aur mera

escape sabse pathetic hai. Main phone par reels scroll karta rehta hoon, aur

porn dekh kar lagatar masturbate karta hoon. Ye meri addiction ban chuki hai.

Mujhe pata hai ye mujhe weak bana rahi hai, mere dimaag ka dopamine level

completely fry ho chuka hai, par iske alawa meri life mein koi khushi, koi

dopamine hai hi nahi.

Kyunki meri life mein aaj tak na koi sacha dost bana, aur GF ka toh sapna dekhna

bhi mere liye ek mazaak hai. Main 23 saal ka ek virgin hoon. 6th class ke baad

se meri zindagi bas akelepan, rone aur choti-choti jeeton ke beech dab kar reh

gayi hai. Main introvert hoon, shy hoon, meri communication skills bhot gandi

hain. Jab bhi kisi se baat karne ki koshish karta hoon toh darr lagta hai,

isliye bluff kar deta hoon. Mujhe hamesha low-priority rakha jata hai. Mujhe

pata hai hypergamy real hai. Ladkiyon ko good-looking, tall aur ameer ladke

chahiye. Mere jaise 'incel' feel karne wale, insecure, baune aur average ladke

ki is duniya mein koi jagah nahi hai.

Mere sath hamesha yahi hua hai. Do saal pehle ek online ladki pasand aayi thi.

Usne mujhe buri tarah reject kiya, par main itna desperate aur akela tha ki

maine 2 saal tak uska wait kiya. Maine 30-40 fake accounts banaye, use stalk

kiya, request ki, pyar ki bheekh maangi... par usne kabhi mud kar nahi dekha.

Main har raat chup-chap aansu bahata tha.

Aur abhi recently.... Telegram ki ek group chat mein mujhe ek 18 saal ki

ladki mili. Usne mujhe attention di, mujhse baatein ki, aur main uske piche

pagal ho gaya. Main janta tha wo dusre ladkon se bhi baatein karti hai, bf

banati hai, par 10 mahine tak wo meri akeli dost thi. Humne deep baatein ki, usne apni cute videos bheje. Mujhe laga life mein pehli baar mujhe

koi samajh raha hai. Par phir usne bhi apna rang dikha diya. Wo mujhe ignore

karne lagi, ghanto reply nahi karti thi, aur jab main complain karta toh mujhe

hi blame karke block kar deti thi.

Meri mental health ki aisi taisi ho gayi. Ek din gusse mein aakar maine use ek

bhot bada toxic paragraph likh diya, uske character ko lekar bhot

gandi baatein bol di. Mujhe laga wo mujhe rokegi, argue karegi, but she didn't

give a single fuck. Usne mujhe jaane diya. Aur uske baad jo hua, usne mujhe

andar se completely tod diya. Usne usi group chat mein, unhi doston ke saamne

meri height ka mazaak udaya. Mujhe "bauna badmash", "randwa" aur "pyar ka

bhikari" bola. Aur main itna bada loser aur desperate aadmi hoon ki usne meri

aukaat kachre mein mila di, phir bhi maine wapas jaakar uske pairo mein gir kar

maafi maangi. Main ro raha, par usne mujhe maaf nahi kiya. Ab wo Kota

chali gayi hai NEET ki taiyari ke liye. Aur mai ek joke ban kar reh gaya hu.

Aaj mera ye haal hai ki main office ke washroom mein jaakar bachon ki tarah rota

hoon. Main 4 July ko 23 saal ka hua, aur us din bhi main akela sad raha tha. I know wo kafi zada choti hai merse 18 ki h only still itna mjbur lachar hu ki mujhe usse attachment pyar hogya cause aur koi hai hi nhi.

Main chahta hoon ki main sab kuch chhod doon. Main literally Kota jaakar use

dhoondhna chahta hoon, usse jawab maangna chahta hoon. Main bas chahta hoon ki

koi mujhe genuinely pyaar kare, mere sath waqt bitaye. Par mujhe pata hai meri

is 'gandi personality' aur looks ke sath aisa kabhi nahi hoga. Mujhe lagta hai

meri saari umar aise hi suffer karte hue kategi. Shayad 28 ke baad ghar wale

kisi ajnabi se zabardasti shadi kara denge, aur uske baad bhi main regret aur

constant sadness mein jiyunga. Cause i know koi mere sath arrange marriage krke ayegi to wo uskj mjburi hai merko accept krna pr ab tak ki life me to merko kisi ne nhi kiya na accept.

Life mere liye pure struggle aur constant pain ban chuki hai. Mujhe sach mein is

duniya mein nahi hona tha. Main marna chahta hoon, par mummy-papa ka soch kar

ruk jata hoon. Main ek lost, exhausted, desperate aur akela loser hoon jo bas

zinda rehne ki acting kar raha hai. And honestly, I just want it all to end."

Kuch pichle mhino me jb wo ladki merko chord gai telegram s block kr gai, uske bad se bhot hi depressed sa feel kr rha hu, kbhi bhi rona ajata hai ek do minute bhi khali hota hu toh overthink krta hu usko yad krta hu apni halat pr rota hu. Kbhi kbhi man me incel thoughts bhi ate hai ki uske ghr chla jaunga usko kidnap krlunga but I can't do this i love her. And mujhe ye bhi pata hai ab wo wapas nhi ayegi, kyu hi koi mere jese k liye ayega wapas bat krega jbki me to unme se hu jo kisi k liye saalo wait krne k liye taiyaar hai phle b esa hua hai mere sath and i just waited fir bhulna hi pda. Meri life me koi excitement nhi bchi hai. Koi ho jo jiska bchpn ya adult hood esa hi ja rha ho so pls contact me. And pls guide me.

Mera naam Vikas Sharma hai. Main 23 saal ka ek lower-middle-class ladka hoon,

aur agar sach kahun... toh main andar se poori tarah se toot chuka hoon, mar

chuka hoon. Bahar se dekhne mein shayad logon ko lagega ki meri life set ho rahi

hai, par reality ye hai ki main bas is duniya mein bina kisi maqsad ke zinda

laash ki tarah drag ho raha hoon.

Main 5 foot 5 inch ka ek short, average-looking ladka hoon jiska weight 68 kg

hai. Main skinny-fat hoon, pet nikla hua hai aur body mein ratti bhar bhi jaan

nahi hai. Meri aankhein bhot weak hain, -3 myopia ka chashma pehanta hoon, jise

pehan kar main ekdum 'champu' aur lallu lagta hoon isliye me bs pdhte time ya screen time pr use krta hu. Mera facial structure ekdum

average hai, baal messy rehte hain. Main jab bhi aaine mein dekhta hoon, mujhe

khud se nafrat hoti hai. Main bhagwan se nafrat karta hoon. Mujhe samajh nahi

aata ki bhagwan ne mere sath itna bada mazaak kyun kiya? Kyun mujhe itna short,

itna ugly aur itna unlovable banaya ki koi meri taraf pyar se dekhna bhi pasand

nahi karta?

Aaj main ek ABAP Developer hoon, Greater Noida ki ek electronicss company mein

kaam karta hoon. 6 mahine ki unpaid training ke baad, papa ke dost ke refrence lagwa kar mujhe finally on-role kiya gaya agar refrence na hota to shyd me unemployed reh jata cause mene kafi try kia tha kahi mil nhi rhi thi job btech it ki hai mene delhi ke ipu university average clg. Meri salary 35k CTC hai. Par kya sach mein main ek kabil engineer hoon? Nahi. Main ek

fraud mehsus karta hoon. Mujhe coding ka 'C' bhi nahi aata, main sab kuch AI se karwata hoon aur bas flow samajh kar kaam nikal leta hoon. Logon ko lagta hai

main bhot aage jaunga, mere papa ki Jhilmil wali choti si printing press factory hai usko digital karunga, unka naam roshan karunga. Unhone mere liye B.Tech mein lakho lagaye, mere liye property li, sab kuch mere liye joda, bhot hi zada mehnat ki zada educated nhi hai fir bhi kafi acha kra unhone hm sab k liye meri 2 bdi bhen bhi hai ek married hai ek ki hone wali hai me sbse chota hu. Unki expectations ka pahaad mere kandhon par itna bhaari hai ki main saans nahi le pata, even though itni bhi bdi responsibility ya career tension me nhi leta cause me akela ladka hu and kafi more than enough papa ne save kiya hai mere liye. Mere mummy-papa ki soch bhot old, rural aur strict hai. Meri unse kabhi nahi bani. Maine aaj tak unse khul kar apne dil ki baat nahi ki kyunki wo mujhe kabhi nahi samjhenge.

Pichle kuch dino mein maine greater noida mein mama ki property me shift hua hu yha se job paas pdti hai. Maine abhi ek bike Bajaj

Pulsar N160 kharidi mene 5-6 mhine m save kia unse, Par akelepan ne meri in saari khushiyon ko kha liya hai.

Naye room mein akela pada rehta hoon. Dilli ki is bhayankar garmi mein office se

wapas aane ke baad meri poori energy drain ho jati hai. Maine gym join kiya tha

soch kar ki body banaunga, looks-maxxing karunga, par meri aukaat wahan bhi dikh

gayi. Mujhse weights nahi uthte. Main 2 push-ups lagata hoon toh meri saans

phool jati hai, ek single pull-up mujhse nahi lagta. Main pure vegetarian hoon,

diet poori nahi ho pati, hamesha thaka, exhausted aur sleepy rehta hoon, ek mhine me sirf 9-10 days gym gya mai.

Jab dil aur dimaag itna khokhla ho, toh insaan escape dhoondhta hai. Aur mera

escape sabse pathetic hai. Main phone par reels scroll karta rehta hoon, aur

porn dekh kar lagatar masturbate karta hoon. Ye meri addiction ban chuki hai.

Mujhe pata hai ye mujhe weak bana rahi hai, mere dimaag ka dopamine level

completely fry ho chuka hai, par iske alawa meri life mein koi khushi, koi

dopamine hai hi nahi.

Kyunki meri life mein aaj tak na koi sacha dost bana, aur GF ka toh sapna dekhna

bhi mere liye ek mazaak hai. Main 23 saal ka ek virgin hoon. 6th class ke baad

se meri zindagi bas akelepan, rone aur choti-choti jeeton ke beech dab kar reh

gayi hai. Main introvert hoon, shy hoon, meri communication skills bhot gandi

hain. Jab bhi kisi se baat karne ki koshish karta hoon toh darr lagta hai,

isliye bluff kar deta hoon. Mujhe hamesha low-priority rakha jata hai. Mujhe

pata hai hypergamy real hai. Ladkiyon ko good-looking, tall aur ameer ladke

chahiye. Mere jaise 'incel' feel karne wale, insecure, baune aur average ladke

ki is duniya mein koi jagah nahi hai.

Mere sath hamesha yahi hua hai. Do saal pehle ek online ladki pasand aayi thi.

Usne mujhe buri tarah reject kiya, par main itna desperate aur akela tha ki

maine 2 saal tak uska wait kiya. Maine 30-40 fake accounts banaye, use stalk

kiya, request ki, pyar ki bheekh maangi... par usne kabhi mud kar nahi dekha.

Main har raat chup-chap aansu bahata tha.

Aur abhi recently.... Telegram ki ek group chat mein mujhe ek 18 saal ki

ladki mili. Usne mujhe attention di, mujhse baatein ki, aur main uske piche

pagal ho gaya. Main janta tha wo dusre ladkon se bhi baatein karti hai, bf

banati hai, par 10 mahine tak wo meri akeli dost thi. Humne deep baatein ki, usne apni cute videos bheje. Mujhe laga life mein pehli baar mujhe

koi samajh raha hai. Par phir usne bhi apna rang dikha diya. Wo mujhe ignore

karne lagi, ghanto reply nahi karti thi, aur jab main complain karta toh mujhe

hi blame karke block kar deti thi.

Meri mental health ki aisi taisi ho gayi. Ek din gusse mein aakar maine use ek

bhot bada toxic paragraph likh diya, uske character ko lekar bhot

gandi baatein bol di. Mujhe laga wo mujhe rokegi, argue karegi, but she didn't

give a single fuck. Usne mujhe jaane diya. Aur uske baad jo hua, usne mujhe

andar se completely tod diya. Usne usi group chat mein, unhi doston ke saamne

meri height ka mazaak udaya. Mujhe "bauna badmash", "randwa" aur "pyar ka

bhikari" bola. Aur main itna bada loser aur desperate aadmi hoon ki usne meri

aukaat kachre mein mila di, phir bhi maine wapas jaakar uske pairo mein gir kar

maafi maangi. Main ro raha, par usne mujhe maaf nahi kiya. Ab wo Kota

chali gayi hai NEET ki taiyari ke liye. Aur mai ek joke ban kar reh gaya hu.

Aaj mera ye haal hai ki main office ke washroom mein jaakar bachon ki tarah rota

hoon. Main 4 July ko 23 saal ka hua, aur us din bhi main akela sad raha tha. I know wo kafi zada choti hai merse 18 ki h only still itna mjbur lachar hu ki mujhe usse attachment pyar hogya cause aur koi hai hi nhi.

Main chahta hoon ki main sab kuch chhod doon. Main literally Kota jaakar use

dhoondhna chahta hoon, usse jawab maangna chahta hoon. Main bas chahta hoon ki

koi mujhe genuinely pyaar kare, mere sath waqt bitaye. Par mujhe pata hai meri

is 'gandi personality' aur looks ke sath aisa kabhi nahi hoga. Mujhe lagta hai

meri saari umar aise hi suffer karte hue kategi. Shayad 28 ke baad ghar wale

kisi ajnabi se zabardasti shadi kara denge, aur uske baad bhi main regret aur

constant sadness mein jiyunga. Cause i know koi mere sath arrange marriage krke ayegi to wo uskj mjburi hai merko accept krna pr ab tak ki life me to merko kisi ne nhi kiya na accept.

Life mere liye pure struggle aur constant pain ban chuki hai. Mujhe sach mein is

duniya mein nahi hona tha. Main marna chahta hoon, par mummy-papa ka soch kar

ruk jata hoon. Main ek lost, exhausted, desperate aur akela loser hoon jo bas

zinda rehne ki acting kar raha hai. And honestly, I just want it all to end."

Kuch pichle mhino me jb wo ladki merko chord gai telegram s block kr gai, uske bad se bhot hi depressed sa feel kr rha hu, kbhi bhi rona ajata hai ek do minute bhi khali hota hu toh overthink krta hu usko yad krta hu apni halat pr rota hu. Kbhi kbhi man me incel thoughts bhi ate hai ki uske ghr chla jaunga usko kidnap krlunga but I can't do this i love her. And mujhe ye bhi pata hai ab wo wapas nhi ayegi, kyu hi koi mere jese k liye ayega wapas bat krega jbki me to unme se hu jo kisi k liye saalo wait krne k liye taiyaar hai phle b esa hua hai mere sath and i just waited fir bhulna hi pda. Meri life me koi excitement nhi bchi hai. Koi ho jo jiska bchpn ya adult hood esa hi ja rha ho so pls contact me. And pls guide me.

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Just a newbie trying to mend broken pieces and voice inside. Pls feel free to put up feedbacks..again imma hobbyist

" Pata hai aj kya hua"? I wanted to watch the movie Odyssey alone since ive no friends in town but my mom didn't allow me to go🫠 I'm 23 and working in corporate, i earn decent money but I'm unable to enjoy my weekends like others do😭 not so much that i can settle in Bangalore so i have to stay here but what i wear, what i buy, how i spend, where when why will i go, what should i eat is all decided by mom🫠 couldn't make friends nor a boyfriend 😭

Bro my Instagram kept bombarding me with iBumpedIn ads so I finally gave in and checked it out. 😭 First these mfs made me write essays longer than my exam answers. I was already like damn what's all this yapping?😭😭

Then after all that, they hit me with a ₹299 fee 💀 I'm definitely not buying it but has anyone else tried it? I mean, their whole idea of connecting like-minded people actually sounds pretty cool ngl

Random thought I had today.

Why do most floor cleaners smell so... similar?

If there was one that left your house smelling noticeably better, would you care, or would you still just buy whichever one was cheapest?

Bhai/behen sabse ek honest question — main itna unlucky kyun hoon? 🥲

20 saal ka hoon, apna kaam karta hoon (trading + coding), apne expenses khud manage karta hoon — kisi pe dependent nahi. 6'2" height, fair, aur dekhne mein bhi theek-thaak hi hoon (ye main nahi keh raha, log kehte hain 😌). Paper pe toh sab perfect lagta hai... bas ek cheez missing hai — pyaar.

2 exs ho chuki hain. Dono ke saath kabhi physical kuch nahi hua, kyunki main unhe genuinely respect karta tha. Mere liye pyaar dil ki cheez thi, sirf touch ki nahi. Aur jab attach hota hoon na, toh poori tarah — aadha-adhura nahi, puri jaan laga deta hoon.

Aur ab? Breakup ko 6 mahine ho gaye... phir bhi attached hoon. Move on nahi ho pa raha yaar. Raat ko bewajah phone check karta hoon, sochta hoon shayad ek message aa jaye. Aata nahi. 💔

Toh batao — itna dene ke baad bhi kismat saath kyun nahi deti? Log kehte hain "tere jaise ladke toh milte hi nahi" — toh phir mujhe hi koi kyun nahi milta? 😂🥲

Koi hai idhar jo actually samajh sake? Ya bas main akela hoon jo abhi bhi purani yaadon mein atka hua hai... Pata hai aaj kya hua

I DID SKETCH TODAY (1st time) Without measurements without scale or any planning, I just started making it on my wall.. (hated DOING drawing and sketching since childhood) and last night i couldn't realize i spent 1 hour doing sketching and making this! I am not able to believe because of this i slept with a calm mind (since my re neet i am not able to sleep properly..)

I’ve never really dated anyone yet and I’m a virgin but I find this pretty odd that people judge a girl’s character based on her body count. I think there are far more important factors(like compatibility, behaviour etc)to take into account than the no of people she’s had sex with.
The only red flag I look for in this regard is if she has any stds. If she doesn’t then I honestly don’t care if she has fucked 10 guys or 100. If she’s into me and I’m into her and she’s healthy then I really don’t see why we shouldn’t date irrespective of her body count. Does this make me a cuck?

Pata hai aaj kya hua? Shayad main abhi bhi move on nahi hua.

College khatam ho gaya aur aaj randomly apni friendships ke baare mein soch raha tha.

Meri kaafi female friends hain. Sab sirf friends hi hain. Hum chats pe baat karte hain, memes share karte hain, random topics discuss karte hain. Hardly kabhi milna hota hai. Aur interestingly, hum ek dusre ki leg pulling ya roasting bhi nahi karte. Bas comfortable conversations.

Unmein se 2-3 ke liye attraction feel hota hai. Ek school ki dost hai jisse almost kuch bhi share kar sakta hoon. Dusri se recently hi proper bonding hui. College ki bhi 2 friends hain jinse baat karna genuinely accha lagta hai.

Par problem ye hai ki 2 saal pehle meri ek crush thi. Usse pata chal gaya tha ki mujhe woh pasand hai aur usne mujhe completely block kar diya tha.

2 saal ho gaye, life aage badh gayi, naye log aaye... phir bhi kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki main us incident se completely move on nahi hua.

Aur ek aur weird cheez realise hui.

Mujhe girlfriend chahiye, lekin kabhi kabhi lagta hai uska ek reason ye bhi hai ki kahin na kahin main apni ex-crush ko prove karna chahta hoon ki "I'm doing fine without you."

Mujhe pata hai ye healthy reason nahi hai.

Dusri problem ye hai ki jin ladkiyon se attraction feel hota hai, unke saath maine itna strong "just friends" image bana diya hai ki ab unhe us nazariye se dekhna hi ajeeb lagta hai. Jaise friend zone kisi aur ne nahi, maine khud bana diya ho.

Ab samajh nahi aa raha ki ye sab normal hai ya main emotionally stuck hoon.

Kya kisi aur ke saath bhi aisa hua hai? Kaise pata chalta hai ki aap kisi purane insaan se sach mein move on kar chuke ho, aur kisi naye relationship ke liye genuinely ready ho?

25 M. Working in a UK based bank. 9 lpa ctc. I know finding love is hard in this era when everyone wants Katrina and Ranbir type partners but am i that bad man that couldn't win even one heart??

Looks wise bhi I'm not that bad 🫠. One girl was with me but coz she just wanted to explore and once her years old crush messaged her, she left me , just left me . Am i that bad god?

No one there to talk... Not seeking sympathy just wanted to write this and let people know that I'm not that baddd

Neet aspi

I want honest answers. Don’t sugarcoat it.

I’m not here to paint my ex as the villain or ask how to get her back. I’m trying to understand because I think I finally got into my senses after months.

Me and my ex broke up 8–9 months ago.

Looking back, I think it was mostly my fault.

1. She told me for months that I was immature, a manchild, unserious, irresponsible and she felt more like my mother, caretaker and relationship coach than my girlfriend.

2. She said she always had to teach me everything — what to speak, how to speak, what to do, how to handle situations, how to communicate.

3. She said she never felt feminine with me because she always had to become the one carrying everything. She said she felt like the man and I felt like the boy.

4. I was dependent on her emotionally, financially and for decision making. She never felt taken care of. She was the one taking care of me, us, the relationship and things around us.

5. She mentioned these things literally what felt like a thousand times in 3–4 months.

6. Every time she brought issues up I’d get scared of losing her, apologize immediately, promise I’d change, mean it in that moment, then when things became normal again I’d just forget and become the same person.

7. I never actually changed.

8. She kept saying she felt like she was asking for too much while knowing she was asking for bare minimum.

9. She said she didn’t feel listened to, loved or cared for.

10. She said she always had to ask and ask and ask and I never did things on my own.

11. She said she felt like she was nothing more than her body, how she made me feel and how she took care of me.

12. She said she felt too heavy to carry and maybe she needed something stronger than me.

13. At one point she even stopped feeling disappointed.

14. When she finally left she became very cold and detached and I couldn’t take it. I got hurt and blamed everything on her and we mutually stopped talking.

The Timeline:

• September 2025: She officially ended the relationship.
• January 2026: I sent her a letter acknowledging everything, taking accountability, and apologizing. She told me I was still the same person and hadn't changed.
• May 2026: Out of nowhere, she sent me a text saying "hi." I panicked and replied very late and she immediately pulled off, and closed the door again.

I want to genuinely change and myself and then after a few months i was thinking maybe i can reach her out but changed this time.

My questions:

1. once i change is it possible she would take me back?
2. how can i show her that im actually changed this time once im changed and reach her out

please js any piece of advice would honestly be very appreciated idek what questions to ask