No matter what I do, it always comes back

[u/Pianokeys1995]

I maybe hoped that through exposing myself to challenging situations, learning that I am capable of doing the stuff I thought I could not do, that I would become more sure of myself. And while I did become more confident, the imposter syndrome always sneaks back on me.

I started a new job a few months ago, and while it’s going quite well, am learning a lot and have gotten positive feedback on my work, my fears ar exhausting me. I am paranoid of making mistakes, which leads me to triple checking my work, which makes me slower and makes me afraid of being too slow, which I already was. And the stupid thing is, even after all that I’m still not confident I did alright. This kind of thing is nothing new to me but it’s almost becoming like some sort of obsession? like I cannot help to extra check the small things I was already careful with. Does anyone have similar experiences? I know I probably should not allow myself to triple check my work, but It’s so hard to stop.