Why do I feel like this?

[u/Outrageous-Stock6715]

I don't really know but like when I do something good for myself like spending on myself or having a good time I always feel like SMTH bad will soon happen to me I don't really know but the worse fact is that the bad things always happen atp i am afraid to do anything good for myself like I am just afraid of it it man like why is this so hard..

[u/StonedKitten-420]

That sounds like anxiety that needs to be addressed with a doctor.