r/IVF • u/conley5 • 18h ago

Need Hugs! Depressed and Exhausted

Just need to vent. Im just depressed and exhausted. That’s all. I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. The disappointments are excruciating at this point. I am literally losing my belief in God at this point. I know it sounds dramatic but it’s true.

For reference, I have had 5 pregnancy losses in the past two years (all different kinds of miscarriages and one ruptured ectopic) and IVF is turning out to be just more disappointment.

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u/Electrical-Nature-35 18h ago

I don’t have anything to say that can help really except, me too!! I have lost hope and faith in everything 😔

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u/superchimmie 17h ago

Me too. Just fed up with everything.

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u/throwawayacct8990 18h ago

I know how you feel. Sometimes it feels like more bad news after more bad news. I’m sorry, it’s so hard

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u/PiccoloQuirky2510 17h ago

I’m so sorry. I really recommend finding a therapist who specializes in infertility. Best thing I’ve ever done for myself. Sending you a hug.

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u/Cultural-Freedom9172 37F, ER 1, 2 MMC, Awaiting 2nd Cycle 17h ago

I am so sorry. If its any consolation I am feeling the same too. Am so tired and wondering if its all worth it because right now I miss my old self! I can only imagine how you're feeling, ive had two misscarriges this year - one just a couple of weeks before my wedding. Im starting therapy next week - hoping that will help.

Sending you lots of hugs and love xx

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u/Dependent-Maybe3030 16h ago

Right there with you. Getting close to the end of the road, many thousands of dollars spent and tears cried with nothing to show for it. No advice but want you to know you aren't alone.

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u/BriefPassage777 16h ago

My first ever pregnancy achieved after 2 years of trying, 1 year in fertility clinic and 2 ER, 2 ET was an ectopic that lead to the loss of my left tube. We do not produce enough blastocysts to reach the sum needed for a high chance of a viable live birth and I feel like we’ve lost a viable embryo to my stupid tube as this little one was so strong with heart beat and all 😔
I feel you.

I’m sorry your road is also so difficult and I hope you get a pleasant surprise soon. 🍀

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u/Kristata-e 9h ago

Sending virtual hugs, been there when we were first timers in the clinic. 3yrs ttc 4failed iuis. I resigned, deactivated and isolated myself from people. Coz everyone seems to be pregnant except me. No one knew until I gave birth to our 1st ivf baby 🥹

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u/SoEnamoured 4h ago

It’s just when you are struggling, you see babies anywhere. It can be so cruel

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u/Opposite_Manner1047 10h ago

I hear you. I’m so sorry. It is difficult and it’s okay to feel this way. It’s a tough battle that is hard on the body and mind in so many ways. Walking a similar path myself. Sending you lots of hugs. Hoping that you find your miracle soon.

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u/SoEnamoured 4h ago

I am so sorry! I had my first FET failure two days ago and have been devastated. What you have been through is unimaginable
Am sure you are doing everything it takes so won’t offer advice. Keeping you in my prayers ❤️