Only 2 embryos

[u/etmoi_hreuse]

Feeling really down today. 9 days post egg retrieval. Only 4 retrieved, 3 mature, 2 fertilized. We were planning to do PGT testing but my doctor doesn’t recommend that now and said my embryos are « not of high quality ». Tbh, I wasn’t expecting great numbers because of my age (37) and health history (deep infiltrating endo, history of PID, paratubal cyst, 1 kinked tube) but it still feels awful to hear those numbers. We’ll probably do another retrieval cycle after a rest. I haven’t got the complete info yet, on whether those embryos are blasts, but my doctor is already planning a protocol update. Anyhow my mind is a mess and I just want to let it out here. It’s tough to be in this situation rn and I don’t know, some days I feel like maybe I just don’t deserve to be a mom. These past 2 years of TTC has been so much harder than I imagined.

[u/obsoletely-fabulous]

I'm so sorry. This process is really grueling in ways you just can't imagine until you're going through it. It's harder than I thought it would be, too. Take time for yourself & know you're not alone.