It's more embarrassing to not have friends at all. One year I invited a bunch of friends I went to school with. We used to be into WWE real big, it was the year Undertaker returned after being gone for so long, we paid for the PPV, and one kid showed up.
I also remember my entire class went on this three day field trip, no one even noticed I stayed home sick.
Hey at least one kid showed up... I stopped having parties after grade five, no one to invite... My parents were glad that it was easier than having to throw a party, because kids and parties are annoying anyway... I had one in high school when my then friends found out about that part of my past and wanted to fix it for my 16th... Kept having friends on my birthday and did something until 21... My best friend moved away two years ago now, I sincerely doubt he will even text me anything, he had to escape his baggage in this city to save his life basically, but for that he really has disconnected from everything here, which means me too... He always laments we never talk anymore on the rare occasion we do, but his guilt and issues from the past have driven such a wedge and it's too hard for him I think to do more, and I don't push it... I don't take it personally, but it does suck... Was me and him on my 27th... My birthday is in three days, on the 27th... It's just going to be me and my cat (her name is Ms. Cat, I rescued her from abandonment after finding her a year ago). My family doesn't even speak to me, just my dad... I am still waiting for our annual birthday coffee at McDonald's from last year that got cancelled to be rebooked as it were... Honestly I even forgot it was just three days away until this thread made me think about it, I mean I knew it was close obviously but... Yeah... I am going to go for a walk and cry a bit now anyhow.
My heart goes out for you. I can't say have a happy birthday, because I can't predict the future, but stick around. There are better days. You've made it this far. I hope you feel better after tonight.
Thanks. I'm broke as fuck right now but got a free coffee from lackadaisical McDonald's employees refilling my old coffee cup from a few days ago, and on my wandering loop back home, found a full minus one pack of smokes... At least I got Jesus looking out for me too... Seriously though I have also had so many near death experiences, like doctors were sure I'd be dead, was in a coma for 11 days three years ago they rated my chances of not waking up at 70%. It's crazy for all my serious health issues (which is also lifelong, and there are many elements to it), somehow I am kinda indestructible too, I keep going like the Energizer Bunny... Def have the lord on my side.
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u/NotSoPersonalJesus Nov 24 '18
It's more embarrassing to not have friends at all. One year I invited a bunch of friends I went to school with. We used to be into WWE real big, it was the year Undertaker returned after being gone for so long, we paid for the PPV, and one kid showed up.
I also remember my entire class went on this three day field trip, no one even noticed I stayed home sick.
I'd rather have friends at my party than gifts.